God pointed out to me some decades ago that everything in life has a lifeline. I realized many many years ago that I was fueling my anger from my childhood childhood with thoughts in the present – with the nature of those thoughts.

Recently, in counseling I recognized that many of my thoughts, my negativity towards (certain) human beings was fueling/building a wall that I keep up (higher at certain times (following…) than others) to protect myself based upon fear, or lack of faith rather.