You recall the time where you tried and failed, tried and failed, tried and failed… then one day you succeeded. Then you tried again and failed, and failed, and failed…. Then one day you tried again and succeeded? Then you tried again and succeeded. And again and again, and again!

I don’t blame people in Alcoholics Anonymous for giving up -if I had known from the start what I was in for…*

*That molestation is a son of a…

A good father would always place his own children’s welfare ahead of his own -looking back at my father’s attitude and conduct, this was not the case with mine. And to add, my father never gave me the impression that he wanted me to go beyond what he had accomplished in his life 😪

I realized probably sometime last year that I’ve always had an issue with people. Up until about 10 years sober and Alcoholics Anonymous I’ve never had a relationship last more than a year.

In the military, I recognize that I recognized that my pattern was every 3 or 4 months getting into mischief for some kind of trouble.I found a medallion app Madeleine out on the jump field Saint Meares Eglise’ or one of the others… For the entire time I wore it I never got into trouble. Then one day I lost it and the next day I got into trouble. There is a God!

Unlike the world outside, a few the things I love most about Alcoholics Anonymous:

•We’re all equal

•We don’t get better by looking at other people’s faults we get better by looking at our own

•There are no leaders or rules

•A person cannot be thrown out of Alcoholics Anonymous – the only other place I know of on this planet that has that policy is prison

•It doesn’t matter how good looking you are, how much money you make, what kind of a job you have, what kind of a car you drive, who you know, what part of town you live in… We all gotta do the work in the rooms of alcohol it’s anonymous or die

•We must work towards having the best possible relationships with every human being! Every person matters -none of this clique BS

Easy money – Many an alcoholic could be characterized as a cheater of life. Where other people suffered the normal consequences of living on this planet… It’s like being in school and having a hole in your desk with the answers in your palm and peeking through that hole. Once in Alcoholics Anonymous, we have to stop cheating life and start carrying our own water. Once we get sober we get an opportunity to experience all the things in life every other non-alcoholic has been facing each day of their lives – Life doesn’t go away just because we get sober! It does get easier on 2 fronts however: We have problems but we’re no longer the problem”; When we stop cheating we actually learn something and grow stronger. I knew a woman who had a son who sold drugs. He tried going back out into the real world and living legitimately. 4 or $500 a week doing hard work, just didn’t seem to sit right with being able to make 4 or 5000 A-day doing nothing at all. For some people, the idea of getting your dignity back just isn’t sufficient.

Once here on planet Earth we are all responsible for making a choice. Think about it 🤔 -if life is not a test, then how is it that there’s no way out of it as long as we are alive on this planet -as far as making choices that is. And insofar as to not make a choice, is to make a choice! To do nothing…

“To do nothing” is probably the biggest choice will ever make. “All that is necessary for evil to triumph is for good men to do nothing.’

The thing about my alcoholism that really made me perk up and to take notice was this: I love steak. I love lobster. I love sex. I love Bubble gum ice cream… But after a while I got sick of it. I never got sick of drinking and drugging (🤔 I REALLY AM DIFFERENT FROM MY FELLOWS)! It was a moment likened to John Nash in the movie “A Beautiful Mind” when he comes to the realization “They don’t grow old”.

Alcoholism is like 2 bullies. I saw a movie once where they said you take away one of the bullies and the other flees. And Alcoholics Anonymous we do the same thing. We cannot do anything about the craving once we induce alcohol but we can do something about the obsession obsession through the suggestions offered in the 12-step program. The problem of we Alcoholics centers in the mind -so, we address the issue from that vantage point.

If you want to non-alcoholic to understand what it is to be an alcoholic… Give them a pill whereby they can’t simply have one drink. To know what it’s like to be a normal drinker if you’ve never known it before… when you drink a glass of Orange juice in the morning with breakfast are you sitting at you sitting at work counting the minutes on the clock so you can go outside to your truck and sip a glass of Orange juice?

If you only have the obsession of the mind then you will keep on going back to a drink time after time. If you only have the craving of the body then once you start drinking you cannot stop.. But if you suffer badly enough, you may choose never to return to that 1st drink ever again.

I was told in a class one time that if an alcoholic suffered a hangover immediately after taking the 1st drink they would never do it again. I was also told entreatment that alcoholics performed better with a few drinks under their belt elt then without one at all. That is the difference between an alcoholic and a non-alcoholic.

True Heaven, one never tires of. If you ask most men what heaven is it’ll probably tell you to be in between a woman’s legs -if they’re honest. But once it’s over and done what do they stay there? Nooooo, they look for something else. So 🤔 THAT’S NOT REALLY HEAVEN IS IT? And a mother with her children? After a while, most women need a break right? So, 🤔 THAT’S NOT REALLY HEAVEN IS IT?

The closest example of God’s love for us is probably a mother and her children. See, God gave us an example that we can honestly relate to -right before our very eyes. Did you miss that one?

If God is infinite, then the oldest of our kind must still appear to be only seconds old -from God’s perspective. As a parent, your children will always seem like children to you in many ways. When you were 5 and your brother was 8 it seemed like a gap a mile wide. Now that you are 55 and hes 58…

To stay ahead of my alcoholism I have to stay busy in Alcoholics Anonymous. To fall behind on my alcoholism all I need do is nothing. Once I crossed that line in my addiction (a life of debauchery, total disregard for God and the instincts He endowed me with -among other things…) I relegated myself to… God’s punishment for all the above is simply that I do what I should have done all the long. The 12 steps are for people who have lost (thrown away) the innate/inherent ability to have a relationship with God. Explain to me why many atheists function very highly and many christians do not function very highly perit’s very highly. Explain to me why by some Atheists can have a drink, seemingly with impunity; while some Christians cannot? Anser: God in them!

You take a broken watch to a watchmaker; you take a broken human being to God!

When a child is fearful he runs to his parent. As an adult, what do you run to when you’re afraid? Women have other women to cry to on their shoulder to, and sometimes they have a man, or both. Where do men cry -on whose shoulder? Throughout my years in recovery I met many women who had no clue as to the role of comforter to a man. You could say many of them even felt that that role was reserved for the man in the woman’s life -strictly!

Believe it or not, some Fathers actually love their children more than the mother -make better parents!

But let’s face it, at the rate in my addiction, I had to do a lot of work. I never heard anybody get drunk sitting on the couch thinking about it. I never saw anybody get sober that way either

You go out into the world and try hanging out somewhere without having any money and see how long you’re welcome. $ $ $ $ $🤌

I never paid much attention to this particular modicum. After a number of years sober in Alcoholics Anonymous I realized something 🤔 -The more simple my life is the less opportunities for my alcoholism to come out and play.

When was the last time the act of fornication was not taking place every moment of every day on this planet? For that moment God must have genuinely been relieved.

When was the last time an hour went by without someone killing someone on this planet?

Some people don’t know

Some people don’t care

Some people don’t agree

Some people do

“You know the words, but you miss their meaning”

The more selfless I become through the teachings of the program of Alcoholics Anonymous the more weary I become of a world filled with selfishness and bent on self-destruction.

One of the reasons I come into the rooms of Alcoholics Anonymous is to get away from the selfishness, the bitterness, the ignorance, the competitiveness, the arrogance, and the lack of, the basic lack of brotherly love out there in the real world -and the feeling that I don’t belong! A world where many people don’t even realize what’s killing them!

As Alcoholics in Alcoholics Anonymous, WE have but two primary purposes: That of staying sober; and that of helping other alcoholics to achieve sobriety! To share what WE have learned in life and what I have been taught in these rooms! For me specifically, to share with others that they might not be caught off guard by their alcoholism!

Occasionally, I have people come up to me after a meeting to shake my hand or simply thank me for what I shared. There’s an old saying in Alcoholics Anonymous which applies to me as well, “if you have a problem with someone in the rooms (or elsewhere) -start by looking at yourself first”. There’s another saying, “If one or two people in a room think your a jerk- you can probably blow them off -if everyone in the room thinks your a jerk…” 🤔

Every day in a meeting I bring it a 100%! On a personal note, my primary purpose is to see everyone stay, stay sober, and become better human beings! Many times in Alcoholics Anonymous I have heard it said “this is the last house on the block” -If we run the alcoholic out where else are they to go? If you run me out where else am I to go? Which is one of the reasons we recommend putting principles before personalities. No one expects the Alcoholic (self-centered and defiant in the extreme) to get this thing in one day – But an attitude of blatant disregard for all things spiritual; or that of contempt for your fellow Alcoholic -is a threat to all!

We are either a help to people in here or a hindrance. We are either carrying the message or carrying the disease! WE who have gone before, cannot be as effective in OUR purpose if people are going to fight US!

I’ve been saying for 25 years now that man is going to encroach more and more on his fellow human being. And we are witnessing it now (more than ever).

•Some 15 or 20 years ago they came out with the volume on the TV turning up when commercials came on.

•Now they have software that listens in on your phone to your conversations. A friend of mine was having a private conversation with his wife about purchasing a match about purchasing a mattress and then when they got back on their phones that were ads for mattresses on the sites they were visiting.

•Now when you go into a website they don’t ask you if you want except the cookies they simply tell you that if you stay you’re gonna get him whether you want them or not.

•And what’s with the web-page squirming around when you’re trying to tap an icon and it slips in another icon in it’s place to prompt an ad? My bank does that.

•And what is with all the icons on eBay where when you go to press purchase history there is an expanded field directly below surrounding the sell/buy again icon so when you tap the purchase history icon the sell/buy icon opens instead.

I also stated some 25 years ago that man is gonna keep coming up with more and more foolish terminology, outlandish terminology. You type something stupid into Google and it comes up nowadays -when it didn’t 25 years ago.

I GUESS PEOPLE DONT HAVE ANYTHING BETTER TO DO THAN TO FIGURE OUT HOW TO GET OUR MONEY -OR PAY SOMEONE ELSE TO FIGURE IT OUT FOR THEM!