The last couple of days I keep thinking “How can I change my state?” I do not have an altogether likable or personable way to me. I notice this in members of my family as well.

When you have an ungodly thought or inkling, and it seems to me so often they arrive, and I begin to manifest them through my own thoughts and feelings before I even realize I’m doing it.

What God is asking of me, Emma which is to say what God is asking of all of us, I find a tremendous struggle find a tremendous struggle which the majority of the time I do not win over. “I’M TIRED AND I FEEL ALONE MUCH OF THE TIME; GOD SEEMS COMFORT ME AND STRENTHEN ME AT INTERVALS!”