I noticed that when I go through periods of hopelessness with regard to a future with Ana, THAT THAT IS ONE OF satan’s cues to attack. To get me to go back to my old patterns. Masterbation! Promiscuity! What are your vulnerabilities? What are your old patterns? Do you suffer attacks?

In a meeting I talked about the reading, happiness, peace, usefulness. I talked about how peace and usefulness are more of a choice than happiness – that happiness is something a bit different. That the most important thing in the troll stuff program is not happiness, but “GROWTH”. Growing in the likeness of our creator as it states in the book. I talked about how some people come into the program extremely damaged. I talked about how some people come in having suffered great loss. The number one loss being that of the loss of a child for many. I talked a little bit about my own losses and how alcoholism and addiction destroyed our family when I when I was at a very young age. I talked about how some days it’s hard to get up with a smile on my face. I talked about how peace of mind is based upon how a person chooses to live their lives. I talked about how I can choose to think only of myself or I can choose to think only of myself or I can choose to think about others more than myself. But that happiness was something a bit different.

How do you feel about a future where artificial happiness can be had? How do you feel about a future where weight loss and a beautiful physique can be had without any effort at all? In my time, the effort was what gave it was what gavid value. Not simply the result in and of itself. SCOFFS AT THE EVOLUTION MAN. Just because we can make it easier on ourselves or others, just because there’s a book to be made, doesn’t mean we should should -make it, make it easier!