For the most part I only wanted what was taken from me as a child and to be loved. But the world is a very conditional place once you leave the home. Also a very cold place in many ways.

What is a man to think of himself who is… What is the tendency of a man with regard to thinking of himself when:

1) He started out terrible in life and then converted;

2) He started out good, and his remains so all his life;

3) He started out good, and ended up bad;

4) He started out good, but then he improved markedly from there.

You see we all carry around the relativity of our past -regardless of our present. How does one see clearly the present, viewing it through [along with] the eyes of the past? It’s like time, as we get older, as we dwell in the continuum of time, our perception of time changes as we accumulate more of it collectively behind us. You’ve heard of people who grow older, talk about how time flies more and more. Well as we grow older, the increments of time we experience in real time become smaller and smaller fractions of the whole [of overall time we have been alive].