Many people lack the depth, the maturity, the faith, to fully grasp, to fully embrace, what it is that is happening in/to this country! 😔

It’s better as a spiritual being to do the wrong thing with good intentions than to do the right thing with bad ones -GOD DEALS FIRST-AND-FOREMOST WITH 💕 AND SECONDLY WITH SCENARIOS I BELIEVE! SCENARIOS COME AND GO. LIFE WAS CREATED FOR MAN, NOT MAN FOR LIFE!

Can you feel life testing you, pushing you to your limits? Some of us don’t get it, I know I didn’t for many years, decades. This is a more significant and in some cases, more pervasive feature of [some] people’s lives. We grow by having our limits tested voluntarily, willfully [subconsciously or consciously]? We’re not here to enjoy life though some of us like to think so. And those of us who manage, I believe it’s an example to all of us; a lesson to all of us; a warning; an inspiration for some. Different men are inspired by different things -but of course you knew that already 🤷‍♂️🤷🏾‍♂️🤷🏽‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️ I do things for people and I seldom get the response I expect, or hope for -and almost never in a timely fashion when I do. This is just one example, my example. It pushes me to learn patients, acceptance, to keep my expectations low, to do things with the right motive, to do things for the doing itself, for GOD, for me [only]?

If God were to speak something to you of your rival, something in the form of “there is no competition; there is no comparison”; what would your thinking be? That he or she is better than you, or that you are better than he or she?

Finish your dreams [upon awakening].

Food?? [Can’t remember now 😏]. 30-45 seconds later. Thank you GOD 🙏🏻: The other day coming back from the airport I was asked to pick up a couple of sausage egg mcmuffins from my Uncle. I mentioned in a previous post that I used the money from the gas I was given [to take my cousin and her daughter to the airport] to pay for them, and that I could tell that he wanted me to pay for them out of pocket, and not reimburse me. I was sore. He asked me how much did he owe me, I said nothing I used the money you gave me for gas. He immediately complied letting me know that he didn’t want a blue pay for whatever reason. My Uncle likes that kind of stuff, he likes to be treated good, respected highly… On a side note, I’m really beginning to understand much of the formation of my own personality personality at a critical time in my life when I lived with these people. Something I’ve suspected for many years in counseling -or post counseling. Sometimes, when we get the ball rolling in counseling, things start filtering through, sifting through months or years later. Anyways I let it go or so I thought after a few days. I don’t know why it’s so hard for me to just do [for these people; even though there is some selfishness,, some taking advantage -other people out of love manage do they not 😔🤷‍♂️] and not…. Anyways, I gotta call out of the blue yesterday from a buddy of mine, Juan Carlos. He asked how was doing and so forth….. I told them I was on my way to Walmart get a few things. One being the person he is, insisted that I come over and pick him up and he takes me to go get some groceries. $100 worth when all was set and done actually. GOD! Never lose hope! Never lose faith as I so often seem to*.

*Of course I got an extra bag of broccoli when my aunt 1/2 an hour earlier asked me to pick up for my Uncle after a report from the doctor revealed his blood was somewhat anemic? No my aunt asked how much it was about a 1/2 an hour after I arrived -I, once again started thinking they were going to take advantage. Well anyways as I was getting ready to leave she asked how much I owed, I said $7 calm as she looked at my Uncle -poor 👨; He’s right about her having him pay for everything. Well I took the money even though I didn’t pay a nickel for the broccoli. I immediately saw it as an opportunity to get back the money I paid for the sausage egg mcmuffins mcmuffins rather than trusting in God and being grateful for the $100 I had received in excess in access for my irritability the week before. I didn’t feel very good about it afterwards, and I asked God if I should return the money and he said no said no -but a lesson learned yes? Hopefully! I’m going to use it Sunday along with the gift card for Kane’s chicken, to pick up some food for us for the game on Sunday -49ers versus Cowboys. Gooooo Niners!