I switched roles in my relationship that I witnessed as a child growing up between my dad [drinking, drugging, womanizing, gambling] and stepmother [co-dependent?]. When I was drinking and drugging I was my dad. When I got sober I became my stepmom to the women are you had been involved. The only thing is is that the women that I was trying to make better, in many instances they had common issues not uncommon ones like my father. They had normal issues that many couples struggled with but I didn’t know this. The model that I grew up with was that somebody in the relationship always have to be fixing someone. With my grandmother and me, with my behavioral issues as a young boy, my grandmother’s job was to fix me. 🤷‍♂️

I think much of my “problem” (Donvan’s Echo 32:40) is that I’ve always had an agenda and people being the creatures they are [especially women] pick up on that. When a person is disadvantaged, and are already suffering from said disadvantage, you develop, among other things “an/the agenda”.

People who have problems handling excess -GOD tends not to afford them this luxury or this privilege or this responsibility