There are certain qualities each of us look for, admire and desire in another human being. Although admire and desire can be very different and stem from very different places.

If you evaluate a man who even women will say can have any woman he wants, what kind of qualities or whathe qualities or what sort of position is he in? Seriously, think about it. What sort of man can have any woman he wants? I don’t see any women knocking down doors at a monastery. Yet these are some of the most humble and good natured people you will ever find on the planet.

In GOD’S universe you are no more alone than anyone else.

With humans so much is about power rather than love.

With regard to childhood trauma perhaps the most important thing affected is one’s wit’s one’s will if not they’re upside down perceptions or ideations.

If 98% of people love to screw then why is it that 98% of people walk around acting like they don’t or like it’s not an issue or like they’re indifferent?

The greatest adventures of all can perhaps be experienced in the mind, through the mind -without ever having to leave your home.

Gotta get that “self” outta the picture!

Some people don’t care some people don’t know any better.

Love can heal many wounds and revive many a dying spirit. The problem is where most of us have been hurt and and traumatized is an hour relationships to others. As a result it impacts the very thing that might save us: Our ability to give love and receive love. This is what compounds the damage and prolongs it too. And satan as well as fully aware of this.

If you wouldn’t put up with your friends or your partner’s troubles for nothing -then you’re probably doing it for something. Amazing the way we weigh business-like on things so [seemingly presumably] personal.

Your love for another person doesn’t depend upon someone else’s actions, feelings, responses.

It’s when scars from the past mingle with woonds in the present and injuries from the future, all needling on the same area -that are the most difficult to absorb.

I was tired of people before I ever really understood them. And now through some reading that I think I do a little more….. All the more.

Many people do not so much care as do what they to do to get what they want or need. You look at a certain actor and they’re biography and you’re given the impression that they never really gave a s*** about anything. Do they really not give a s*** or was it a front? Did they not give a s*** because they were still able to get what they basically wanted and needed anyways? Unlike most of us they didn’t have to give a s*** to get what they wanted or needed? Or the 3rd one, maybe they never gave a shit because what they wanted most they could never achieve or attain? Or did they simply carry that attitude through life because they learned a long time ago that the rest of the world did so in kind? 2 alcoholic parents can’t be a very carrying experience. You look at many businesses in corporate America, they used to care about what people thought because people cared [and based on upbringing the people running these business probably cared too]. Now that people don’t so much care, Or feel powerless to do anything about it since I’ve chosen not to be United as a country and society, crporate America doesn’t seem too either. The attitude seems to be as long as the money keeps pouring in who cares. So using this as a model how many people really care, and how many people only do what they need to do to meet the criteria of the day regarding social norms that to do otherwise would deprive them of getting what they want or need? If you did a study where people didn’t have to follow social norms in order to get what they wanted or needed how many would do so accordingly?

There’s a difference between being drawn to an interesting person and a good person. If you know what I’m trying to say.

In everything there is always something to be discovered -i’m guessing.

If you keep raising the stakes/ante, how much is a person willing to take? Will a person continue to take more and more if there is more and more to be had?

There’s just something about these rich and famous people -their dealings…

I could never make a good lawyer because my brilliance would always come too late.

If you know where the strings of humanity lie -you can become quite popular, powerful, tolerated. A man who knows man well enough, such as satan for example… We’ll just look at how popular and successful, not satan himself but his principles playing on the weak heart-strings of mankind have become.

You see the popularity <-linked-> of very powerful and talented individuals. And it is not due to their spiritual qualities.

Not caring is a sign of self centeredness and caring too much is a sign of self centeredness. Or something like that.

People are reactionary. You do X they do Y. You do why they do Z. It’s not that people aren’t predictable it’s that they respond basically according to what they like and don’t like. And then there’s the dimension of time and sequence. You do enough early on to get people to really like you or fall for you and then later on you can start screwing up and depending on the degree to which you screw up and the duration the duration of its period, people will tolerate it for varying periods to varying periods depending on the individual. How smitten they had become with regard to your initial presentation is why as likable or laughable. How tolerant and patient and desperate people tend to be with, in the face of the latter. It’s more than just a game it’s a psychology. Unfortunately most people are not just game players but psychological in there heart-of-hearts.

I’m not sure it’s true early on anyways, to say that I’ve never been a fan of impressions. But I will say they’re a most powerful thing in the human world.

One of the 1st things we learn growing up is what we like and don’t like and what others like and don’t like. It appears to be a central theme in both our existence and our relationships – Or if you prefer, our existence and the existence of others.

A certain legendary actor. Interesting I suppose is how you would describe him. Not particularly decent or moral. Possibly even devious. Certainly manipulating and calculating. With reputation to boot. All this, and still certain types in droves drawn to him. It just goes to show a number of people out there in the world must also be lacking in decency and/or morals. Some too devious. Manipulative. Strange. Curious. In need of someone to make their life interesting. And of course some with a certain unworthiness. Somewhere in all of this is probably 80% of the population in one form or another. This individual fit in perfectly with a neurotic, narcissistic, lonely, egotistical America. JESUS MAN! It’s “THE GAME”. WHAT’S IN IT FOR ME. The whole premise of a fish biting on a hook is “what’s in it for me. How’s it going to satisfy my wants and needs”. I mean apparently a person can go through people all day long if they make them think they’re wants and needs can be satisfied in the least. Depending on how needy, curious, egotistical, deviant/twisted they themselves are. IN CONCLUSION, WE ARE NOT A SPECIES WRAPPED VERY TIGHT: MOST PEOPLE DON’T KNOW WHAT THEY’RE DOING; AND ALOT OF PEOPLE, IF YOU KNOW WHAT STRINGS TO PLUCK, CAN BE PROVOKED AND MANIPULATED FAIRLY EASILY. EGO, SENSUALITY, FEAR, CURIOSITY, SADO-MASOCHISM… YOU KNOW ALL I EVER REALLY WANTED WAS A REGULAR LIFE. THE FACT THAT I MADE IT PAINFULLY INTERESTING CAUGHT ALOT OF PEOPLE OFF GUARD AND IN THE LOOP FOR A WHILE. Which I find in and of itself very interesting. A lot of people don’t like boring and a lot of people don’t like being chased -the feeling that they’re being pressured. They prefer the pressure of having to act to be in control. Whether that control means getting away from someone or having them, depending on the dynamic they are faced with. 🤷‍♂️ Street forward never really seemed to work for me with most women. You know -the whole lack of a challenge thing. I’ve seen men seemingly treated women quite cruel. Something of a challenge wrought with pain and broken-heartedness. And yet this is what got the women going. Kept them coming back for more. Kept them enthralled and entranced*😔. But in the end many of these women end up with a regular, simple guy because it isn’t realistic to maintain a long-term relationship under such conditions previously described. It’s too hard on the emotions and to unstable a dynamic. Women will tell you they hate it, they will even destroy a man with their words in the aftermath, and yet they appear to be drawn to it. Something about a man who appears it appears to have something people want, women want, that triggers a sense of “I want it too” “I want to know what all the ruckus is about” “they must find something irresistible about him, I’m going to find out for myself”. And of course something else many women can’t seem to resist is a man with a “take it or leave it attitude”. “He must know or have something going for him I haven’t yet discovered”. And yet for a man to go the alternative route leaving no challenge or sense of mystery is something reserved for a woman who has been burned and left hopeless of her dreams of a mysteriously exciting “knight in shining armor-type”. I’m not proud of the circumstances under which I met Ana or how I treated her, and yet along with the departure of that old Richard -departed her interest in me. I no longer make her laugh as my spirit has gone out of me. We no longer have wild sex now that she’s married and I’m unwilling to cheat as before -despite her own attempts through the years to win to instigate it. In Los Angeles as a boy I remember seeing a Billboard which stated “In every woman there’s a bit of Eve”. No truer words could have ever been spoken. I wonder if Marlon remembers seeing that Billboard. There was another Billboard “Come catch me with Kamchatka”. Lol memories.

How many people for example wake up on a Saturday morning regretting, or [still] fooling themselves about the person whom they woke up with? I played that game for a long time. And the thing of it is I fit into it in a screwed up kind of way according to those also participated.

Some people can go on playing the game -throughout throughout the entirety of their lives they fund the strength. And so they do. Most of us however cannot and so we end up changing our course, morphing our initial high-hopes in light of our limited strengths, our limited naivete’.

Apparently things like so low self esteem and ignorant hopes of youth are rampant at all levels of society, humanity. Just like for example -Alcoholism.

Sometimes power is not a good thing – But try convincing most of us of that in the face of where/what it can get us on the front end.

Marlon Brando nor my friend Lou seemed to show any remorse for their transgressions. In both cases they lost a child. 🤔

As with most people who can see things mist people cannot, or refuse to…

If you aint to what claim you are then prove me wrong. How many violent people cannot pass this test?

If you choose to do things your own way there are a lot of excellent life examples in other human-beings you choose to by-pass. 🤷‍♂️

If a person is sensitive but weak it doesn’t work*. All kinds of complications can ensue. I’m one such person. Thank you GOD** for answering my prayer to remind me of this this morning or yesterday or 3 days ago – Thank You 🙏🏻

If people in the twenties thirties and forties were already having issues with materialism and sex and the like can you imagine now [that the moral and social stigmas having fallen by the wayside]***.

• There has to be a balance. This is crucial. And what if a person is very strong and lacking in sensitivity?

** I ask God for help when I when I forget something and out of the blue it comes at some point 1/2-2/3 of the time.

*** People back then were already using the theater and the cinema to cinema to fill the emptiness and the void felt inside.

Where some people exploit [a person’s weaknesses] others deflect or defer [in an attempt not to even though they would very like to enjoy the advantages by doing otherwise]. Marlon Brando like to exploit certain certain women and their weaknesses while I tended to push them away. I’m sure I could be quite successful at exploiting these types of women had it not been for my propensity to go in the other direction.

If you’re not a part of society, if you stick to yourself, you’re perceived as having something wrong with you [you’re mad]. If you are a part of society, you join in the madness.

We not only have to work to survive but we have to stay busy so we don’t go mad. Look at all the things we have and are creating to stay busy and it’s not go mad, and not merely to make a living but to conquer And not merely to make a living but to conquer.

If gold rained from the sky and we each we’re able to amass a fortune, a few idiots among our kind would go to work immediately trying to take it away from us -MAN CANNOT SEEM TO CONTENT HIMSELF WITH EQUALITY LET ALONE EQUILIBRIUM.

Some people are jealous of another person’s ability to attract people. Some people are jealous of another person’s ability to put them off. 🤷‍♂️ Brando and I?

Running away from a relationship and pushing people away in a relationship are 2 very different dynamics – But ultimately they both tend to achieve the same goal. Marlon and me.

It’s one thing to be weak and another to be weakened.

It’s okay to make decisions and have feelings based upon GOD’S…. because: 1) GOD KNOWS WHAT HE IS DOING AND AT ALL TIMES HAS OUR BEST INTERESTS AT ❤. IT IS NOT WHERE PEOPLE ATE CONCERNED BECAUSE THEY DO NOT, ARE NOT ALWAYS…🤷‍♂️ CAPICE?

There’s 2 kinds of running in life: The kind that’s good for you in the kind it’s not so good for you. Just ask Marlon Brando-or me.

I don’t know if it’s people in general or mostly people with low self esteem – But when you play hard to get or run away they’ll come running after you -every time! Men who play hard to get [present a challenge] seem to trigger something and women that makes them want them all the more

Marlin and Lou’s children

Perfume that makes a tinkering noise

If you look at Jesus and his family and how they lived poor poor and impoverished but right versus people in this country who live well and not so right – Who do you suppose was the happier and more contented?

The 2nd most important thing is how [WHO] we live [LOVE].

When I was younger I couldn’t articulate everything I had experienced which time after time led to my failure. Now that I’m older it’s a little late for excuses. 🤷‍♂️

We men often get wrapped up in our failures regarding things that bring things that could be construed as construed as trivial or shallow. Few, if any, man would ever argue that be unable to get any woman he wants or the most beautiful woman in a party that a party would be construed as trivial or shallow. Most men would kill to be able to have this ability. But it is it really so important? Is it really so meritorious? One thing you learn as you grow older is that many of the things you thought important when you are younger really or not.

If only there was a way to be able to get young people to understand [grasp in their very marrow] what older people understand after years of life, hardship, heartbreak.

Don’t wish for other [successful or fortunate] people’s demise, surpass them!

It’s amazing how many people in this country think money is their solution. Many alcoholics feel the same way about alcohol.