A lot of people who work in the public sector, speakers and such, even famous pastors you see on television… Whether from the start or as a matter of course resulting from me from the excessive attention and fame, I have found in my highly limited experiences with some of these people a coldness a coldness that does not correlate with their public message. Many of these people enjoy the accolades and the attention, but nary have the internal sentiments which one would think to be the true 🌟 belying it all. Another disappointment 😞

For all they’re carrying on of the torch to build this country in the late 1800s through the mid 20th century, they had their issues too apparently. Life will do that to a person I suppose. I would imagine these people as with so many other generations throughout history in the world were under tremendous pressure. But in this country along with the pressure to survive came the increasing pressure to thrive. And then of course no matter what period read you choose throughout human history, the protection of the ego is always lurking. Guarding against what other people think by whatever means. Guarding against the repercussions of being judged or being an outcast. Is being judged in and of itself. Signs. From what I gather the children of these generations of these generations were fed up with the so called hypocrisy and secretiveness of the family issues. But what today themselves accomplish through their openness, and through their open rebellioness? They set the stage for chaos and complete utter loss of that sense if maturity and responsibility crucial to living in a free society which continues to reverberate, resonate [more and more] with ensuing generations to this day -and how more generations before we see the light?

People really don’t like to hear about the sort of topics the topics in these pages. For about the past 3 months I’ve grown weary, depressed more than usual. I haven’t even been able to… Anyways, I’m waiting for the day when I either get shot or sued. Most people who describe the system for what it is -generally don’t farewell. Like the true face of alcohol; usually only apparent [enough] in alcoholics. The true face of some things and some people are ugly while others are quite beautiful – It’s the world we live in -or made.