There are 2 kinds of people in the world the kind that when faced with adversity they make things worse and the kind who went faced with adversity make things better. I was the kind of person all of my life who made things worse. If you were gonna make me miserable I was gonna make you miserable I guess. I think in sobriety I tried to bring in some solutions some solutions but people don’t want to listen to solutions that require things of them often times.

When I lived with my grandmother and Van nuys I noticed she really didn’t have many friends looking back. Maybe that’s why it never really seemed to occur to her that I didn’t have any either. A boy growing up needs friends and companionship like a dog. Unfortunately we lived in an apartment that didn’t allow dogs.

I think that “if I think about the world I’m a part of the world”. As long as I continue to think about it, I’m attached to it or a part of it. I think that’s been my thinking and my reasoning for many years now.

The army wants you to have balls the size of watermelons when it comes to the enemy and balls the size of peas when it comes to the chain of command. At least that was my experience 1st hand.

So tired of people in this country if you don’t know how to say “when”. And the country that refuses to put limits on how much people take out of the system. We put limits on everything else except for the rich and the powerful and the greedy.