Daisy, our little Chihuahua -Depends on Ana and myself for everything. This thought keeps going through my mind the past few days I’ve had her here with me “If I were to grow tired of her, or in a fit of rage drive her away or even throw her out (into the street)…” That thought breaks my ❤ -and yet, I have done to human-beings many a time in my early relationships/friendships 😔 (in some cases with little thought or remorse -ahhhh self-justification). I don’t know why this thought has been with me these past few days -old fear that in a few days she will be gone and I will be the one abandoned*? In my younger days, it was gonna be you that gets hurt before me. As you mature, and grow in (real) love -you tend to do things the other way around. 😘

*When I was younger, I didn’t struggle with fear -I struggled with terror. Like a 100′ tidal wave crashing down on me. These days, that wave is seldom more than 7-8′ tall.

•Title taken from film of the same name. Please Don’t Eat the Daisies is a 1960 Metrocolor comedy film in CinemaScope starring Doris Day and David Niven,^[3] made by Euterpe Inc., and distributed by Metro-Goldwyn-Mayer. The movie was directed by Charles Walters and produced by Joe Pasternak, with Martin Melcher (Day’s husband) as associate producer.^[3] [Source:https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Please_Don%27t_Eat_the_Daisies_(film)]

Sidenote: In recovery, two very interesting dynamics take place:

1.Our problems seem to shrink, dissipate

2.We become stronger

Now just think about that for a moment! 🤔 (two very different dynamics taking a person in the same -wonderful direction).