I’ve been alone the past 4 1/2+ years -what with Lenelle passing away and gittin’ sick from her diabetes and seeking financial-refuge with her “x”. That’s alot of time to ponder 🤔. These past few days days Daisy (our Chihuahua) and I have gotten a chance to get reacquainted with one another. Interestingly, I’ve come to see her as my family – “😄” how when you’re at a point in your life where you feel you have no one… something, or someone, comes along and changes all that! 🤷‍♂️ I don’t know, I guess in my immaturity, and amprehension about life and people in general, something that’s been missing all of my life is suddenly present. It’s probably not by mistake that at this point in time in my life this beautiful little creature has been brought into it -to spend a week with me. Instead of seeing her as a burden, or an inconvenience, even a threat (as it is only for a weak -detachment anxiety), I have been able to care for, and even embrace her. I’ve suspected most of my life that in order to get past some of these anxieties, some of these disorders from my rather traumatic past -that doing so with the same type of people (humanity in general) who have their own ideations, their own moods, their own fears, demons, flaws… that getting past my old wounds would be nearly impossible. But this little creature appears to have none of that!

ADDITIONAL THOUGHTS TRIGGERED BY THE ABOVE?

Make the future (you desire) become your now! And your now the kind of past you can joyfully reflect upon -the key to your past, and your future revolve around your (very own here-and-) now!*

Make the future you desire -become your now! Make the past (you don’t desire) become your now! The key to your past, and your future starts now! If you have a tainted past -start by creating an entirely new and better one 🤷‍♂️

Use your dreams of the future to create a better now. Create a better now in order to dispel old regrets of the past.

I would tell people at the recovery unit, and occasionally in AA meetings “What you do NOW is worth more than everything you’ve done the past 5, even 10 years!

When you go your whole life screwing up -a bad move isn’t all that significant. Once you start building a life however…. It can take all of one bad decision to bring it all crashing down.

It’s better to screw up when you’re young and have little to lose -than to screw up when you’re old and have a lot to lose.

Some people grow from the inside out -others from the outside in.

I bet you can think of a lot more ideas to become famous in a negative way than in a positive way. Why is that. Why is it that people can become an instant celebrity by doing something very wrong -but not by doing something very right? Maybe we should do something about that!

*I’ve made several attempts and can’t quite get it to come out the way I want to -Some other time maybe. All I know is don’t wake up 5 years from now thinking you could have accomplished…. but because you never did anything…