A life sober coupled with old behaviors is perhaps even more painful than a life drunk with old behaviors -I am very fortunate to have held on to sooooo many old behaviors for so long, and remain dry.

Two things;

•Not die of drinking and drugging

•A better life

The first phases I went thru:

•It was alcohol not me

•Switching addictions

•Blame (my parents; God; you; me)

•Fighting everything and everyone

•Anger towards God

•Defiance/rebellion

•And finally, surrender

Today, I have that better life, and I am sober -not just dry