Sharing in meetings (AA) like I do, 3 – 4 minutes, deeply intense… It’s my way of saying “I exist”, in a 🌎 where not just I, but many others feel unheard, unacknowledged.* Those who do feel acknowledged, is it really love ❤ they are experiencing, or something else in many instances? You see I have an issue making sense of atleast two issues in a world full of seemingly fulfilled people and unfulfilled people:

1. My personal experience with people coincides with that of the Bible -most are only a shadow of their Creator, and therefore, themselves;

2. How on the 🌎 (pun) can there be such contrasting experiences, and therefore, views of humanity by humanity itself?

It’s because humanity is neither perfect nor consistent! To be imperfect is one thing. But when you throw in inconsistent… selective… It took me a long time to figure out what some people saw in a particular 🙃 person -then one day I realized 😳 THEY WERE TREATING ME ONE WAY, AND OTHERS ANOTHER -I WITNESSED THIS FIRST HAND (SMUG OVER HERE, CORDIAL OVER THERE). Of course we know about certain people inside the home versus outside the home -same principle.

*I’ve been told for years to get out and mingle -that it’s my responsibility to make friends… to be a part of… But I’m afraid not even that seems to be of any avail 🤷‍♂️😔. My year’s sober, in counseling, only appear to have widened the gap between humanity and myself** 🤔😏

**God apparently chooses people seemingly suited to the task or 👎 Or maybe I, like Judas, have inserted myself in a position I am not well suited for. I am either unliked, or misunderstood -in either case, it doesn’t seem to be helping my cause -but hopefully, the cause of making a better world will not be too affected by me personally.