Don’t “Conspirasize” the painful circumstances you are going through. Validate the pain perhaps above all -like a wound in the process of healing -allow yourself to feel “the itch”.

Much of life seems to be “This is what I got. Now what have you got? Oh, is that all you got -well then come when you…” It sure feels like that a lot of the time. Like in order to be a part of the human race, in order to receive anything from the human race, YOU EITHER HAVE TO FIRST BE DEEMED “ACCEPTABLE”, AND BRING SOMETHING TO THE TABLE. In prison, in jail people it can be very real, in an unpolished sort of way -except for the polish, are we really much different out here? I’m in jail, or in prison you don’t get much for free, do you get much for free out here?*

*And then when you do have something to give come certain people are of the mind that they’re going to take what you got and give nothing in return. I’M TIRED OF ALL OF IT! At least in my life, this picture seems to be overwhelmingly wrong and underwhelmingly righ!

Most people do not have the strength, the heart [the essential emotions], the will to to put humanity ahead of themselves.