I noticed that when I go through periods of hopelessness with regard to a future with Ana, THAT THAT IS ONE OF satan’s cues to attack. To get me to go back to my old patterns. Masterbation! Promiscuity! What are your vulnerabilities? What are your old patterns? Do you suffer attacks?

In a meeting I talked about the reading, happiness, peace, usefulness. I talked about how peace and usefulness are more of a choice than happiness – that happiness is something a bit different. That the most important thing in the troll stuff program is not happiness, but “GROWTH”. Growing in the likeness of our creator as it states in the book. I talked about how some people come into the program extremely damaged. I talked about how some people come in having suffered great loss. The number one loss being that of the loss of a child for many. I talked a little bit about my own losses and how alcoholism and addiction destroyed our family when I when I was at a very young age. I talked about how some days it’s hard to get up with a smile on my face. I talked about how peace of mind is based upon how a person chooses to live their lives. I talked about how I can choose to think only of myself or I can choose to think only of myself or I can choose to think about others more than myself. But that happiness was something a bit different.

How do you feel about a future where artificial happiness can be had? How do you feel about a future where weight loss and a beautiful physique can be had without any effort at all? In my time, the effort was what gave it was what gavid value. Not simply the result in and of itself. SCOFFS AT THE EVOLUTION MAN. Just because we can make it easier on ourselves or others, just because there’s a book to be made, doesn’t mean we should should -make it, make it easier!

I stated in a previous post that Jesus would go around wishing peace to everyone he encountered-why? My 1st answer was that people are most vulnerable to sinning when they in a state of turmoil. God pointed out to me that the number one answer is that when we are at peace, that is when we are closest to God -when God is most apt to come to us, to dwell in us. THANK YOU LORD! 🙏🏻

I’ve shot from my hip most of my life. A little thinking sometimes doesn’t hurt either -a little forethought [before opening my mouth]. 🤷‍♂️

“I’m tired of people’s games come I’m tired of the selfishness…” My take on relationships, family…

Women like a man whose humorous and easy going -positive… Maybe that’s one of the reasons I’m not. Maybe that’s why I pick and choose when and where…. More carefully. A lot of men aren’t even that by nature, it’s a ploy to attract like a 🐝 🐝🐝 🐝 🐝 to 🌼 🌸 🌻 🌹 HEADS-UP: It’s not a good thing to be attracting women to you:

1) When you’re already in a relationship

2) When you’re in no condition for a relationship

3) We should be focusing on one person or none person not multiple persons

4) “And” getting kicks out of stimulating people emotionally [ala sexapeal] is bullshit!

5) “Or” simply looking for attention-Ditto!

I’m watching a movie called “In the Fade” 2018. I’m glad I watched the 1st 10 minutes of it before shutting it off. Nudity, foul language, and children with filthy mouths. As I said I was glad I put it on. Because this is a perfect example of what I’ve been writing about for the last 30 years. The man has to keep pushing the envelope karma has to keep crossing over one line and then another and then another. Now we’re to the point where 6, 7, 8 years old children are cussing in movies. A woman that I know through Alcoholics Anonymous who is European by birth, I told her a while back that I was tired of the goddess here in America and that I was considering Europe. She told me that Europe is an extremely godless calm a faithless continent. Well I’m beginning to see what she meant.

When you look back on your life, all the people you’ve hurt, and as a result of tallying up all those painful experiences, you come to the conclusion that you no longer feel quite so bad because many of the people you hurt either deserved it, or asked for it, YOU BEGIN TO REALIZE WHAT HUMANITY REALLY IS! 😔 Of course this isn’t the Christian perspective I am offering here, simply my own raw feelings based upon my own individual experience!

I keep tellin’ya “DON’T LET PEOPLE GET IN YOUR HEAD”. It’s like a virus, bacteria… breaking through the blood-barrier.

It’s almost a right of passage to party through your twenties in this country. But some people keep going, and going, and going… if you are a parent -that’s no good! 🤷‍♂️

Sometimes we have to get up while we’re being kicked

They say in Alcoholics Anonymous that pain is the cornerstone of growth. Well 2 things, the 1st is that alcoholics more than anybody else probably don’t like pain. The other thing is that I was probably pretty lucky and that I learned about pain very early in life rather than later – Which is probably served me well in my sobriety when it came to the more painful aspects of growth.

Less-often-than-not! 🤷‍♂️

To us they are ideal situations, to GOD… 🤷‍♂️

One might want to [re]consider taking advantage of the opportunities life affords them 🤷‍♂️

Whose the slave, us, or the credit-card companies continually groveling at our door for payment?

Don’t waste your time on people’s shortcomings, just pray for them. 🙏🏻

I don’t understand how people vote for people based on their color, isn’t that racist in itself? When I see a black man voting for a white man, or visa versa, that tells me perhaps they are looking more deeply into the issues the candidates themselves believe in. OJ Simpson case: I mean really? 90% of blacks thought he was innocent, 90% whites guilty? Talk about people, on either side unwilling to accept the facts lol. Are these the same people who stand by their families side irregardless of the facts of any given situation???

There are varying degrees of resistance in human beings, compliance, vulnerability, in all areas of life.

We want everything to appear normal. We as individuals in our private lives do so to the outside world for obvious reasons. Advantages. Avoidance of repercussions and stigmas and stereotypes. Governments do it.. Science does it. Anything other worldly should be kept hush hush.

If I no longer think about the world. Problems associated with the world and what am I going to think about? This is a? This is a question we should all ask ourselves at some point in our lives.

What is it that determines the qualifications of an ambassador? I wonder 🤔 How many politicians are ill qualified and yet receive the post?

They estimate that life must have started somewhere in northern Africa. But I figured by the time migrations set forth in set 4th in Russia, man was at one of his initial peaks regarding…

How is it that England surpassed so many other countries? And became ruler of the world?

How is it that in the major wars we were all so evenly matched? Why couldn’t one have vastly outpaced the other in terms of strategy and technology? Why couldn’t one think vastly superiorly over the other?

Why should the American public pay for extravagant expenses for this is for state and federal employees? Isn’t that what even the highest officials are, employees? How is it that when a state or federal is it a federal employee reach a certain status, suddenly they are above the American public who pay their salaries? Or not so suddenly.

There’s just something about the highest functioning individuals.

Do not flinch in the face of others humanness.

Do not run away from those you love in their hour[s] of need!

This is the new America calm a trying to be cool? Well that’s what they’re portraying in a lot of commercials now 🤷‍♂️🤷🏽‍♀️🤷🏾‍♂️🤷🏻‍♀️

Once you become aware of something you never the same; Once you become aware of certain things, you always carry them with you, and you begin to notice others things about that thing. For example, once you begin to recognize satan is f’ing with you…

Even the most rational of human beings cannot ascend to the heights of spiritualism on logic alone!