On Peter denying Jesus; The plan was never for Peter to go down alongside Jesus; Peter had to stay alive to head the church and spread the teachings JESUS invested 3 years of HIS life in him. π€·ββοΈ
I’m finding that letting your own dreams die and allowing GOD’S to be fulfilled in their place, for me it has been a lifelong endeavor!
Compassion & Humility
Sometimes, that much sought after relief DOESN’T COME! The greatest example is when Jesus says “My GOD, why have YOU forsaken ME?” The trials of man, the stories in the Bible often come down to this; if my SON endured it for your sake…; If MY VIRGIN BRIDE endured it for your sake, then why not you for theirs! Many Saints were not granted relief in the form, nor at the time they felt their most desperate need! AND SO IT GOES!
My lifelong wish, to draw close to and share my life with another human-being, TO BE LOVED AND VALUED in stark contrast to my childhood experiences. Perhaps this will be my βοΈ-to be denied this!
Many people think the gist of life is this wonderfully adventurous, wonderfully exploitative experience where they, live life to its’ fullest as much as possible before going into the ground for good. Talking about having it all wrong; Talking about shirking one’s own spiritual responsibilities… π€·ββοΈ Or maybe they serve as some sort of example to the rest of us! If you know what I mean?
For some people going through severe pain, severe emotional pain without acting out or lashing out is next to impossible. Try!
For me personally, anytime GOD, or life placed struggles in front of me, I became very irritated and irrational. Therefore, a mindset, a spirit which is adequately prepared for such trials; a mindset, a spirit which has sufficient understanding of GOD’S plan and what is required to bring about such a plan to fruition, are immensely helpful in these trying moments! It is something I have never known or understood; but perhaps now, a ray of that understanding is just now beginning to shine upon me; an openness within me which allows that light to penetrate after so many decades of darkness and apathy!
Man wants GOD to meet him at his level [BY DOING NOTHING]; GOD WANTS MAN TO MEET HIM AT HIS LEVEL [BY CLIMBING].
It is for some, a seemingly impossible task to endure what life hands them without becoming bitter. Think about the idea of of facing all of life’s trials, all that GOD places in your path, while refraining from becoming bitter towards life, towards GOD, towards others. How do we accomplish this?
β’First of all, what is the point of becoming bitter;
β’Secondly, the notion of what is fair, and not fair is largely subjective from man’s point of view;
β’Thirdly, think of the Blessed Mother; She lost her husband [lifelong companion]; then Her SON went away to evangelise; She thus spent the remaining years of Her life largely in isolation, and without her greatest loves, subordinate only to Her love for God. But while Jesus work on earth had been completed, Hers continued for a number of years, 9 or 10 I believe. Loneliness, and much suffering were likely her lot quite often and; ALOT OF SOULS WERE SNATCHED FROM THE HANDS OF SATAN AS A RESULT OF THIS GREAT SACRIFICE!*
It is very difficult for most men to conceive of obeying God while accepting where, when, what type of reward, if any, GOD in HIS nfinite wisdom chooses to hand down. Without reward, of a nature man himself can understand, and value, the prospects for following GOD’S plan often appear bleak! It is very difficult for many men to endure to endure the trials of life, of his fellow human beings, without compensation, without encouragement, without “hope of”… All my life I have wanted something from my fellow human-beings in return for the meager efforts I have put forth -always looking for something to replace that which was lost so early in life. But how much differently am I really from others in this country, in this regard? Sadly, I do not believe it to be so π
*I have lost everything; and now with Ana speaking of moving away, taking Daisy, I too am faced with what already has for the most been a relatively isolated existence, utter loneliness**. Perhaps a few souls will be saved through my own despair? Loneliness and isolation for many, is among mankind’s greatest fears. For a traumatic who has suffered much loss, known only feelings of being disconnected, this proposition is of a grave magnitude! I don’t know, I see no alternative based upon my feelings towards humanity [what I have been through], and what I have experienced from those in this area I live in. Little, compensation, little encouragement, I have received for my efforts π I don’t consider those efforts noble nor heroic, but certainly founded in some degree of unrequited love for my fellow human-beings.
**The prospect of supporting Ana through this very, very difficult decision while letting my hopes of the past 13 + years gracefully fall to the wayside [expect nor ask nothing in return] will be a whole new experience for me πͺ BUT THIS I SUPPOSE IS HOW WE GROW INTO THE NEXT PAIR OF π π GOD HAS FASHIONED FOR US. π€·π½ββοΈπ€·π»ββοΈπ€·πΎββοΈπ€·πΏββοΈπ€·ββοΈ
If the older generation in power is adamant about the rights of your average American, and the younger generation beneath them, has let us say “a differing attitude”, what do you think is going to happen to the rights of the average American over time, when the older generation retires and the newer one takes their place?
Be strong! Remain real!
“Maybe I’ll fare better in heaven if I make it there!”
Kindness, consideration, attitude, responsibility, normalcy, chemistry, loyalty… all the makings of a stable relationship, that is with someone like-minded!
There should be no power over the people going after those above them, to include the system itself, discouraging goodiscouraging good people from rectifying certain injustices! Otherwise the framework itself, the framework in which the system itself too is accountable -no longer has validity. And yet, there it sits. Here we are… Day after day. Is millennium after millennium. WHY IS THAT? BECAUSE, THE PEOPLE WHO MAKE THE RULES [WHY THEM NOT US?] HAVE NO INTENTION OF ALLOWING A SYSTEM WHICH INCLUDES THEM AS ACCOUNTABLE FOR WRONG-DOING. How hypocritical is that? The lower you go down the ladder, the more accountability there is, whereas the higher up the ladder you go, the lesser accountability there is. Funny, it seems the higher the responsibility the lower the accountability. Whereas the lower the responsibility calm of the higher the accountability. Makes perfect sense in an irresponsible, unaccountable sort of way [insane].
You know what a big part of the problem is with humanity, Some of us aren’t interested whatsoever in maintaining a high reputation of humanity itself. So long as their reputation personally is not involved, so long as there actions and attitudes are concealed, so long as they personally enjoy a reputation regardless of its falsity, which allows them to continue to enjoy certain perks… It doesn’t matter to you what people think of humanity? And more importantly, what God thinks? π EVERY SINGLE ONE OF US IS A REPRESENTATIVE OF HUMANITY!!!!!
Is it me, or our commercials becoming more juvenile*?
The higher the stakes; the more the rules get bent. People don’t want to lose; and when they can do something about it… Many people at the bottom lose, not because they’re good natured, good sports, but because they feel powerless over the eventuality. People at the top often feel they are not -provided they are willing to cross certain lines. And that’s the way humanity largely works. Even good people, if the stakes are high enough, will cross that line. The higher the stakes come the more good people will cross over unfortunately. The closer to home the stakesβ¦ Seems rather bleak from this perspective what do you say? Fortunately, there is a pot O’ gold at the end of that rather greyscaled rainbow.
More thoughts from the movie “Hidden Agenda” with Brian Cox and Frances McDormand. When you’re caught up in a shit storm involving highly intelligent, highly resourceful individuals, often times in order to bring them to their knees you have to be willing to put your own head in the chopping block. And even then, there is no guarantee so long as:
1)They have something significant to bargain with, manipulate, coerce…
2)Whoever is above, or equal to them is willing, has no choice but to “play -ball”. And that’s the π we live in!*** π€·πΏββοΈπ€·πΎββοΈπ€·π»ββοΈπ€·π½ββοΈ
*Juvenile – of, pertaining to, characteristic of, or suitable or intended for young persons: juvenile books. young; youthful: juvenile years. immature; childish; infantile: His juvenile tantrums are not in keeping with his age.**
**However, I was thinking more in terms of physical; materialistic; increasingly void of higher principles; values; morals!
*** So when you run across a human being who is unbending in their principles under any and all conditions, any and all circumstances, let it suffice to say you are observing a true wonder, perhaps, if I may π€ a freak of [human] nature!
People, for whatever reason, oftentimes do not do what they’re supposed to do even when you yourself are doing your part [which too is unlikely 100 percent of the time]. So how do you think you’re typical individual behaves when faced with a situation where the person across from them is not consistently measuring up to expectations? They start to slack off themselves. It’s the nature of human beings. Fairness, selfishness and all that crap!
Where do your efforts,; where does the impact you have on your relationship rank currently? Some people are miles ahead of the curve in terms of their relationship being chip being stable, solidified. The litified. Most of us however rank, as you might expect “average or typical” meaning, there’s some work to be done. The narrower the margin between opposite ends of the bellcurve – The narrower the gap between sub par, typical, and exemplary – Meaning everyone within that curve is what, closer to sub-par, closer to typical, closer to exemplary? I would like to see a bell curve where the majority are closer to exemplary.
In therapy they teach a person not to buy into their partners dysfunction common neurosis, drama. Even to get out of the relationship if it’s unhealthy and unmanageable, irreconcilable. And yet, our country, the powers that be, are not only fully engaged [knee-deep lol π] with the dysfunctional, the neurotic, the dramatic, and I’ll throw in “psychotic”, as opposed to “not getting wrapped up in it’all”, we ourselves, in certain instances*, are to purveyors, the instigators π€·π½ββοΈπ€·π»ββοΈπ€·πΎββοΈπ€·πΏββοΈπ€·ββοΈ
*Seldom is any one person, entity… always at fault.
All my life, I’ve neither enjoyed reading, nor writing -GO FIGURE! HENCE, THE BACKLOG ON HERE DUE TO NOT RE-CHECKING THESE POSTS FOR ERRORS. π€·ββοΈ I will attempt to rectify this but, in my state, the writing itself is taxing!
Autists, there has got to be an extraordinary reason for the variation in extraordinary abilities among them! The thought of coordinating them across a flat or spherical plane occurred to me late last night.
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Now connect the dots vertically, not just horizontally as I have done with five smaller dots. The larger ones represent an Autist with a specific exceptional ability while in between, 5 [or 5000] non-autists with typical, or ranging abilities of the same or similar nature. Not sure why, but these represent coordinates.
Are you prone to picking dysfunctional individuals as partners; do you draw them to you; or is it moreso that there are so many unhealthy individuals out there these days, and so few healthy one’s?
Repentance and obedience is what God asks
First, give a problem child what they need, what has been lacking, then evaluate the remaining issues.
Our dog Daisy, all her life, has done what she needs to do, when she needs to do it; I on the other hand, have not -how many times have I needed to go to the bathroom for example, and held it for one silly reason or another. Even p’d myself, pooped myself once or twice as a result. So, when she goes potty on the carpet, and I get angry, WHO DO YOU SUPPOSE HAS THE ISSUE, her or me???
To have a relationship with someone, to be in relationships with someone, for their to be a solid relationship with someone, THEY MUST BE STRONGLY COMMITED TO YOU, ME… THIS I’M HAVING IMMENSE TROUBLE WITH!
You can only accomplish so much by doing or being the opposite of… The opposite, for example, of a country whose policy you disagree with, a person whose beliefs or values you disagree with.*
The right type of government is probably a combination of various governments.
*The first Americans decided they were going to found a new government very much opposed to the one they just left. This approach is not without its limitations and flaws.