You point your nose downward, not too much of course, And turn that light of scrutiny on yourself -and more times than not, the person across from you in which you were on the verge of…, or in the middle of…, something very different inside of them will awaken.

Sidenote: When I first came in to Alcoholics Anonymous, I went through the process of working the steps with a Sponsor. One of the many amends I owed was to my brother. I remember approaching him on one particular occasion and telling him about how wrong I was about put in my hand over his mouth when he cried uncontrollably -after our mom and dad left for an evening out. That was something that could have been left out of the amends. As Bill Wilson says with regard to amends that either can never be made or should never be made in person; mentioned at all for fear of hurting that person once again, “If we are sorry -we believe we will be forgiven”. The old saying “live and learn” doesn’t always sit right (with me) ya know 😔.

It’s not the “brilliance” that matters most -it’s the “goodness” that matters most!

Sidenote: You take slaves for example, they are some of the hardest work people throughout history, and probably the least nutritionally fed-you think they’re taskmasters call taskmaster’s comments their slave owners were concerned about their nutritional health in many or most cases? And yet they were able to perform day-in-and-day out, year-after-year – 🤔 how does that happen?

Summers coming whether we like it or not

Winters coming whether we like it or not

All things come whether we like it or not; It’s only a matter of time; It’s only a matter of which order they come in -this is pretty much true of life and general.

I remember as a young boy taking the bus from Los Angeles to San Francisco to visit our relatives and thinking “I wish I could just fall asleep and wake up when we’re there”. Time seems to go by so quickly when one is asleep (That can be a good thing or a bad thing -It can be taken literally or figuratively).

A lot of things that are wrong with us have to be removed -But that’s not the half of it. You see, whatever’s wrong with us, whatever space those things occupy -they’re either taking up the space where something either used to be -or something needs to be 🤷🏻‍♂️🤷🏻‍♀️

How foolish of me to believe even recently, it’s been recently, that have 57 years old I could stand a chance against a man half my age, bitch call my bigger, stronger, more more durable 🤷🏻‍♂️ It can take a very long time for a man to come to terms with his mortality (his (im)morality).

When I was younger I thought I could we will a lot of things into reality -by thinking them? By wanting them badly enough?

When I was younger I had a lot of thoughts there were self defeating, sabatoging… I would be with a woman for example whom II was very much attracted to yeah I’d like to and find myself turned off by her. As much as I craves crave sex, there were moments where I was disgusted by it -by them. I would look at people, in different situations, look at different people and feel disgust ed with them. I believe what I was really doing was projecting out worldly what I felt inwardly towards myself -all the years building up; being told… being neglected, abused…

Some people heal from the inside-out -some people heal from the outside-in.

Sometimes the lies we tell ourselves turn out not to be lies after all – If it was a lie at the time we were telling it to to ourselves, it turns out not to be a lie at some point down the road -was it ever a lie to begin with?

A lie stops being a lie once the truth is told (found out?).

Speed

Agility

Strength/Power

Accuracy

DUrability

Endurrance

Smarts

Chin

When you go out someone, they’re 1st inclination is to go back at you whether they have anything on you or not!

Sidenote: I’m trying to figure out if ALL of these ridings or a product of some experience of mine 🤔 -because if in fact that is the case -there sure is a hell of a lot experience in here that 😳 I’m not sure is all mine 🤷🏻‍♂️

Not giving people what they want is the best way to get back at them.

What God is trying to draw us towards is, to put it quite simply -THE WAY IT WAS MEANT TO BE! THE FACT THAT WE FEEL COMFORTABLY UNCOMFORTABLE WITH HOW THINGS HAVE EVOLVED AWAY FROM THAT INTO WHAT WE’VE COME TO RECOGNIZE AS WHAT’S NORMAL… WELL THAT’S 🤔 JUST SOMETHING EACH ONE OF US WILL HAVE TO COME TO TERMS WITH -OR NOT 🤷🏻‍♂️🤷🏻‍♀️