Thursday I found the movie “Charleston presents The Bible: The story of Moses” (at my buddies shop). After walking Daisy 2 days prior, and telling her the story of Moses from The Bible and falling short I remember and how it was he came to know God’s mission for him* 😇 God!

Friday, I found the movie “Risen” (also at my buddy’s shop) – After a, the past couple of months looking for it on YouTube, and Tubi, and at the local bookstore with no luck. 😇 God!

Saturday, I was out walking at the University -and I found 2 pennies, one heads up for me, and 1 face down to turn heads up for the next passer by.

Today (Sunday -day before Memorial Day 2021), I was again walking around the University and stopped at the old park I used to when I was a teenager going to the community college for welding in 1980. You’ll never guess what I found hanging on a tree stump – A little red cap with an iron patch on the front that says “KNOW YOUR WORTH”. Now the funny thing is, I saw somebody wearing a hat just like this about 10 or 15 years ago 10 years ago, and it caught my attention** -IT REALLY MADE ME 🤔 (THINK). NOW I HAVE ONE MYSELF -THANKS-BE-TO-GOD!

T.J.I. (this just in): There’s 2 kinds of people in the world that don’t like you:

1. The ones that will tell you straight up what you did wrong

2. The ones who can’t come up with a reason, or will lie and make up one.

*So I ended the story there ( With him meeting the shepherd and his daughters and running off the evil shepherds’ who tried to steal water from their well with his staff) and figured I’d look on YouTube, or Tubi, for some documentaries on Moses -so I could finish the story next time her and I walked -God thinks 🤔 of everything!!!

**Naturally 🤔 I washed that kep (cap) as soon as I got home. Whale (well), it just feenished (finished) drying and… Wouldn’t you know – NO NEED TO ADJUST THE STRAP, IT FIT PRRRRRFECTOE! 😇😇😇😇🙏🙏🙏🙏🤷‍♂️🤷‍♂️🤷‍♂️🤷‍♂️ GOD

(Not-so) “Suddenly, I’m not half the man I used to be” -and that’s a good thing

How do you spell relief:

•Recovery, or;

•Addiction.

If it’s easy, you’re doing it wrong -or not doing it at all!

Many people spend their entire lives trying to get around (Alcoholics) or, remove (financial success) the struggles of life -Jesus sought them out forthright! THE SECRET TO LIFE LIES IN THAT!

THE GREATEST GIFT OF ALL

For some people feelings are a curse -it’s a master-class learning how to bring about the feelings we yearn for!

What in the universe can feel? To feel is the most incredible gift from God!

If I want a specific area of my life to improve then I have to work specifically on that area. If I want a specific muscle or muscle group on my body to improve or grow or get stronger, I have to work specifically on that muscle group and perhaps even surrounding muscle groups. That llesson applies across-the-board!*

* We human beings can become masters of compensation, overcompensation, substitution…. A particular area we feel fearful of or spiritual love or slothful about…. We overcompensate or substitute in another area that we prefer, another area of our own choosing. THIS IS A MISTAKE! And I’m sure you can see why 🤷‍♂️🤷‍♀️

Being a doctor com a lawyer com a mechanic……………………… these are all useful things that you can contribute to your fellow human being outside of the job. You see somebody stranded on the side of the road and you have expertise expertise as a mechanic……. You’re in a conversation with some people and there’s suffering some symptoms and as a doctor you can… or somebody’s having legal issues and you can always…. Some people even have multiple vocations and are constantly assisting their fellow human beings in passing.

In our addiction, we secretly fought from the onset, and suffer the consequences down the road. In our recovery, we do as advised regardless of how it may make us feel in that moment, and then we reap the benefits later on down the road. At God’s discretion! When, how much…

Be careful what you wish for, you may find happiness. Ana Anna seems to be content with a mediocre lifestyle while she continues to fain the opportunity we once had together and shared many moments of happiness.

I remember when I was younger, having 2 experiences with dogs-one was with a neighbor’s German shepherd who I wrapped my arms around his neck and got bit by on my neck. The other 1 was with a huge huge doberman pincher that I got to play with for a few a few moments out in front of the house on 44 Partridge lane. You come along one afternoon well well my cousins were in school and it was just me how it’s me out in front… Very friendly. And well trained apparently. Anyways I would walk him up to the top of the hill and tell him to sit, and then I was walked down to the tree in front of our house and then I would call him, and scramble up the tree as quickly as I could.. We played this little game for some time period it was one of the few fond memories in my life at that time. And then there was king-fully grown Great Dane who walked aimlessly around the neighborhood. He lived over in an old the band and house several blocks away from where we lived on Bryce road in El Monte. I found a rope and tied it around his neck, and I would walk him around from time to time-to afraid to ask my dad if we could keep him of course. He used a brick as a pillow -that’s how tough king was. And that’s it for a little trip down memory lane for today. 🤷‍♂️

I probably screwed up more in recovery than I ever did in in my addiction and alcoholism!

When I 1st came into alcoholic’s anonymous, 2 thoughts were on my mind:

1. Not dying and I’ll call with death like my mother

2. Not being alone

As I began to become more familiar with the process of recovery a 3rd thing surfaced:

3. Becoming a better person. I realize now that all the struggle and difficulty that I didn’t want to endure in my recovery, similar in many ways to that of my early life growing up…. We’re all in preparation to bring me the above! As the old saying goes, be careful what you wish for, you may just have to suffer, and do without in order to get there!

The 1st one I’ve gotten 1 day at a time period period the 2nd 1 I’m still working on.. The 3rd the 3rd 1 I haven’t gotten 1 day at a time.

With regard to our addiction we find relief first (thwarting/circumventing a conventional universal process), then suffer the consequences layer. In recovery we do as is suggested -regardless of hoe it effects us in that moment, and then we reap the rewards in God’s time, way, amount (no more over-indulgence, no more over-compensating for this over here or that over there -and no more lonely nights).

Some of the greatest voices in the world you will never hear-because the person attached to that voice lacks commercial viability.

Sidenote: More and more I keep having trouble spelling words that have pieces of other words in them -is it attached or attached? Why the extra “t”?

The law in just about every case is at a disadvantage -the people involved know the truth; the law doesn’t. So, when the law gets it wrong, the person who knows the truth is supposed to live with the injustice? I ask you; is the law higher than the truth?

Not everyone accused of a crime, who denies it -is lying. But “everyone” expects a guilty person to deny it 🤷‍♂️🤷‍♀️

If say 98% of people guilty of a serious crime -prison time, claim innocence, that means the chances of you and me when in the same position would likely lie as well 🤷‍♀️🤷‍♂️

What was! What wasn’t! What will never be! 😔

People’s main issue with each other:

1. Jesus says people who got more (envy)…

2. Jesus says people who are better-hearted (jealousy)

Now then, I don’t know about the first two; but I DO KNOW THIS;

3. I don’t “PLAY-BALL” very well!

Daisy was visiting on Tuesday and we went out for a walk around the University. I decided to tell her the story of “MOSES” – But when I got to the park where But when I got to the park where he realized that his calling was to serve God and to free his people from the Egyptians -I couldn’t remember how that came about? I know he went up to Mount Sinai for the Burning Bush 🔥; 🤔 But was that the 1st time or the 2nd time? Anyways, I stopped the story right there and told Daisy that I would have to look on the Internet or YouTube to get the rest of the story straight. Well on Thursday I was over at Aaron’s (buddies shop), looking at some movies -and guess what I found, “Charlton Heston Presents The Bible: The Story of Moses”. I had Daniel hold it along with several others, and told Daniel I had 3 movies I needed to return and if he would swap them out for those -which he gladly said he would do. He asked if I had them with me, I said, no but I’d bring them in tomorrow if he wants. (I picked out “The Hulk”, “Charlton Heston Presents”, “Lone Survivor”, “The Gauntlet”, “The Enforcer”. Daniel being the very nice gentleman that he is, hands me The Hulk, Charleston Heston…, Lone Survivor, and says “Just bring in the other movies when you get a chance” -then he said, “oh we’re these the 3 you wanted, or did you want one of the other ones?” I said, “No, these 3 are fine”. (WOW!!! THANK YOU LORD 🙏 SO, THE FOLLOWING DAY:

FRIDAY

For the last couple of months I’ve been wanting to see the movie “RISEN” Went to the bookstore a few times didn’t see it there. Looked it up on YouTube and Tubi -NO 🎲 😏. So then yesterday (Friday), I went to my buddy’s pawn shop to drop off the 3 movies I told Daniel I needed to return and -there were 5 full boxes of movies (80 movies per…) somebody had just sold to Aaron. Naturally I had to do my part in helping the store to sell them lol. Guess what I found -“RISEN”. THANK YOU LORD 🙏

When you’re ready for something the experience is completely different from when you’re not ready. Amputation of a leg for example, loss of a leg…

🤔 I only have 2 things to say:

1. It’s all God;

2. God-bless those people!

I am to stay out of the way and out of sight!!

It’s all God -I am nothing!

As soon as I become arrogant about…. God backs off-and sometimes he takes his blessings with Him; SOMETIMES!

Whenever a woman liked me, it turned me off! Off! Maybe I figured there had to be something wrong with them if they were interested. I would start pushing them away almost immediately. Unworthy unworthiness maybe? I would start pushing them away almost immediately. Unworthy unworthiness may be?

“I wouldn’t wanna be a part of any club that would have me as a member”. -WODDY ALLEN-

[From several days ago-this one is now done and ready to come our of the oven] When the food becomes short in supply, and millions begins to die off from starvation, and those men you place so much trust in now (above God even) -when they are scrambling to ensure they and there’s are shielded for the next year, 5 years… while you and yours have not even for today 🤷‍♀️🤷‍♂️ JUST YOU THINK ABOUT THAT NOW, RATHER THAN THEN!

If, stores and companies can afford -operating from a previously established standard- to cut corners -to shrink their hamburger patties, their boxes of cereal… AND RAISE PRICES, THEN 🤔 IT IS INDEED A TESTIMONY TO BOTH THE BLESSINGS OF GOD, AND THE FAIR-MINDED NATURE (concern for one another-the American family) OF OUR FELLOW HUMAN-BEINGS* OF THAT ERA (*KEEPING IN MIND, GREED CAN, AND OFTEN DOES EXIST -IN ANY ERA -WHETHER THE BRANCH IS GREEN, OR DRY)! Just think of it, Corporate Americas ability to do what they are now doing, and getting away with it, speaks volumes about both how good we had it, and how well we treated one another ONCE UPON A TIME!**

**I just want to add that back then, not everyone dreamed of being a millionaire, or 🤔 a billionaire, or 🤔 a multi-billionaire -hence there was alot more to go around. Between shrinking resources (increasing population), and increasing materislism and selfishness on the part of the individual… We could afford to be more selfish and materialistic a 100 years ago but not today… We’ve got things mixed up! At this stage, we must become less selfish and less materialistic as resources shrink, as the population increases.