Just awoke from a nap -I don’t feel so good, woke up in tears. I miss… 💘 💘 🤷‍♂️🤷‍♂️

When I lived with my aunt and Uncle and it was naptime, I could never fall asleep. I would see my cousins laying there in the beds around me and could not fall asleep.

In grade school when it was naptime, I could never fall asleep.

In my later years, whenever I took a nap, I always woke up severely depressed. It was this way for a very long time -I think working the steps analcoholics anonymous removed a lot of those residual effects.

One of the 1st things I thought about when I awoke from my nap was… But I never rode it down on here. And then God just reminded me 2 or 3 hours later. When I awoke from my nap it was 85ﾟ in the apartment -and I felt slightly chilly -THAT’S GOD -HE CAN DO ANYTHING! The temperature I normally feel comfortable at is between 77 and 79°.

Not all people are happy with what “normally” makes people happy!!! So, “don’t go changin’, to try and please me”

Many people my age dream of meeting their parents or a sibling if there is such a thing as heaven. My mother was too sick, too sick to care for me. My father didn’t seem interested. My grandfather on my father’s side didn’t seem particularly interested either.My siblings are essentially nowhere to be found. The only people I’ve seen to be able to look forward to in heaven are my grandparents on my mother’s side and my grandmother on my father’s side. And probably my mother -if she’s willing, and able. Everyone else it seems, could care less about me. So how do you look forward to seeing people like that people like that in the hereafter?*

There are people out there who have a lot less

*I look forward to seeing God, Jesus, the Most Blessed Virgin, the angels and saints…..

Someone I knew who worked at the unemployment office said there was a co-worker there who would purposefully postpone, to the last possible day, to process unemployment checks -with people she tool issue with. When you scratch below the surface you see some beautiful things and some ugly things among humanity. Some people neighbor scratch below the surface so then ever get to see the awe and wonder and the ugliness that really exists in the world. I am not one of those people. I’ve done a lot of scratching through the ears and more often than not I’ve come up disappointed at. But that’s just my personal experience.

One of my all time favorites is from a movie called tequila sunrise starring Mel Gibson and Kurt Russell and Is Michelle Pfeiffer.

“WHO KNOW WHAT HE’S REALLY AFTER?”

And that my friends, is just one of the things that makes conspiracies so hard to pin down.

“It’s not how hard you can hit back -It’s how hard you can get hit, and keep moving forward!” From the movie “ROCKY BALBOA”.

You know, people often retire when they realize that the general public has lost the ability to appreciate true beauty, true magnificence, true art!

A woman needs to feel needed.

Oftentimes they pick a man who appears injured or incomplete. Oftentimes they don’t pick a man who doesn’t.

They want to help you with dressing a certain way.

They want to add or subtract from your home in a helpful sense.

Trust me, if you don’t allow them to indulge themselves in feeling a part of your life-they will leave eventually in period

Some people in the program just won’t let it go! They keep needling on what some people in the program have to share at the meeting level. Somebody has to be the adult! 8 months ago I left that 7:00 a.m. meeting because people kept taking potshots. And 8 months later we’re right back where we started from.

Keep in mind that Ebbie was the old timer -and bill was the wet drunk.

We human-beings have the ability to speak the seemingly most sublime poetry (truth)-and it be complete and utter falsehood, crap, nonsense, manipulation.

After having watched the documentary on Bob Lazar, in the corner of my mind I thought, as any true conspiracy theorist might 😀, that… are you ready for this… the government, he’ll-why stop there 😑, the aliens could have put him up to it 🙄, let test the publics reaction to this 40% don’t really care (their too busy fighting each other, making babies, drinking/getting high, watching Oprah…); 30% finding it great entertainment (ah yes, the definite winners in all of this -THE MEDIA); 20% actually take it seriously (and BTW witch 20%?); and another 80% have no clue what to think of any of it (some overlap there 😀 -and of course what, or rather who, as in whoever put Bob up to this gets lots n’ lots of juicy slices of statistical information on… how shall I say, the pulse of the nation/globe 🌍.* So, what do we have as possibilities:

•Bob could be nuts and win the “straight-face-of-the-decade” award -“Tricky-Dicks” got him beat by a 👃 in by this case;

•He loves the attention (who knows when or where he experienced some Psychilogical break)

•Aliens put him up to it -promising… threatening… controlling his mind…

•The government put him up to it -promising… threatening… controlling his mind…

•It’s all true and they’re hiding it in plain-sight to… Have you seen the movie where the person comes up with some ridiculous story implicating him and then says “It’s so far fetched he couldn’t possibly be guilty” (the old “Why would I…” routine 🤷‍♂️ -when in fact he is lol

•I could go on… BOTTOM LINE:

1. It’s possible it is true

2. It’s possible, for any number of reason they deliberately threw it out their to the public as a dare, a challenge, an effort to actually discredit, make a farce out of the whole thing -a spectacle (with one man the scape-goat or brunt of it all). L@@k, they threw the story out there and what came of it???? SAME THING AS EVERYTHING ELSE DESIGNED TO BE SHROUDED IN MYSTERY -NOTHING!!!!! JUST ANOTHER ONE OF THOSE “WHO KNOWS -IT”S INTERESTING TO PONDER THOUGH”. There is always someone who comes out a winner -and of course, if we knew just who that was, like any crime, if we knew -then we would have a better idea of the whole story, it’s validity… “who” leads us to “what”, “what” leads us to “why”, “why” leads us to “how”… and so on and so forth -but it’s that crucial, initial piece that never gets found-out that leads us to a dead-end, leaves us in “limbo”. 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♂️ And of course, the media often makes out like a bandit -sorta.**

•Lastly -they could be testing, setting up, distracting the human race (psyche) for something else, something even bigger… like, extortion, thirst for power, greed… you know, those really meritorious things so many of we human beings are known to gravitate towards throughout history. Oh, let’s not forget “ATTENTION (come on, when the government itself is playing “devil’s-advocate”, it’s one of their primary motives they question, “he, she is looking for attention -wife just left him, jobs on the skids…”” 🤷‍♂️

*And by the way, I’m not accusing Bob of anything; as a scientist he will be the first to tell you to lay out any and all possibilities straight out!

**You see, the point in all of this is that it’s so colluded, and so far fetched, and so boring, and so tiresome, and so repetitious… The most people either don’t want to bother with it or they don’t believe it -which once again; If you want to hide something, hide it in plain site (along with all the other “belive it or not” mysteries); where nobody can possibly think of believing (as opposed to looking 😳); where it just gets thrown into the morass, the “abyss of” along with countless other… “we’re so tired… “ofs”…”. At some point, this tactic, when repeated actually becomes increasingly effective -or lost in… 🤷‍♂️🤷‍♀️ Capish?

***and anytime you throw anything out into the public arena and yesterina and monitor and evaluate the response… that is useful information -this is the other constant in a sea of “variables” <-if there us such a thing when you at them as… 🤷‍♂️

One can perform some very strange movements which can bring about some startling effects.