When I was younger, everything had to be perfect in (in my own mind anyways) order for me to be right mentally and emotionally. These days life seems anything but. All I know to do is keep moving forward with these writings for as long as I can go.

Sidenote: When I came in to Alcoholics Anonymous I was so convinced that alcohol and drugs were the problems not me… after all, isn’t that the mountain idea -complete the attacomplete the test from reality? By being as perfect as I could possibly be; I was gonna prove to everyone that it was the booze and the drugs and not me that was at fault. It’s a dangerous game, this game of perfection in recovery… “That which doesn’t bend breaks!”

When I came in to Alcoholics Anonymous they told me I was the problem… I thought, “I’d been hearin’ that all my life!” But the difference was that in Alcoholics Anonymous they were saying so out of love, not ego, or hatred, or fear!

One of the things I love about alcohol tynamis is that it talks about how each individual is responsible for their own recovery and their own mistakes. That’s not what I heard out in the real world -what I heard was a whole lot of blame! And a whole lot of criticism! The other thing was that you can’t be thrown out of Alcoholics Anonymous. I only know of 2 places in the whole wide world you can’t be thrown out of:

1.Prison

2. AA 😁