I remember crossing the neighbor’s yard one time in San Francisco-Daly City actually. My cousin Tony and his friend Louis were with me and and I was behind them -and got caught by the neighbor. They kept going, I stopped and listened to her when she told me to come to her. I don’t remember what she told me but I remember her taking me inside and giving me some chocolate chip cookies. I was always the one to get caught as a child. On a side note; given my reputation as a young boy (or the simple fact I was an outsider -I learned much later… I was the scapegoat) I would often get blamed by my aunt and uncle for a lot of things*. My point is that throughout my life I’ve seldom felt that I got away with they with things. On the other ✋, growing up I would see my cousin and his friends get away with things all the time… with my cousin’s mom and dad…. things they wouldn’t let me get away with… In a lot of ways they got in far worse trouble than I did -and in some cases are now dead at an early age. While it’s true, it did damage my sense of “self worth and equality”; It also instilled me a sense of “vulnerability and accountability” which prompted me to set limits to my choices and behaviors later in life.**

*When my Uncle would gather the 4 of us together and as who did…

•I would laugh because I had this nervous laugh. You know when you get nervous you laugh-but my Uncle took it as disrespect.

•One time with a belt in his hand, he asked who wanted to go 1st -I was the 2nd to the youngest and volunteered. I learned very early on that the sting went away much quicker it’s much quicker if I was busy watching everybody else get it after the fact 😄

At some point several years ago I got 5 tickets in like 14 months. All these people running red lights and I would barely early skim passed and get a ticket and then another and then another and then another. Haven’t had my phone and was doing one of my writings and I had it down below the window and the cop somehow managed to see it and pull me over for that. Then God told me, I want you to remain accountable and on the up-and-up (never about these others). The other thing he told me 🤔 Some people, that’s all they’ve got in life is there rebellion against the law and the law and other things like that (some feeling of worth or empowerment in a world that appears to either have forgotten them or seemingly has no use for them).

Women think there are the ones doing the choosing. But when you rely on other men to show the initiative you’re only choosing from a small pool of men who are actually choosing you.**

** If you are relying on the Sharks of the World to show the initiative because you’re too arrogant or afraid to show initiative on your own then you will get what you get -so 🤔:

“If you don’t like what your (not) getting, stop (not) doing what you’re (not) doing!”