I can’t exactly remember this thought from many years ago – So if it comes out somewhat strange… it may not be the exact thought I was thinking of -I mean this occurred to me a very long time ago. But I’ll take a stab at it any ways. If you see a young girl… The idea of you as a young boy with that young girl…? Is that twisted? I don’t remember if this was the idea that I had many years ago but it was something -and I’m grasping for it. It’s probably not it -but something in that neighborhood… Currently, I don’t have the power to grasp the original concept, but I will leave this one as it is as a reminder hopefully….. It will come to me later…

ok I remember… I had an incident with a young girl when I was 13 and she was 12… I’m not sure what to think of reminiscing about that particular incident as an adult 🤷‍♂️ Afterall, it is a memory* THANK YOU LORD 🤷‍♂️

*It was some 20 or 25 years ago I found myself recollecting the incident is all -nothing really happened between us but I found myself wishing something had (mixed feelings)** – for one thing, it may have altered the course of future events. 🤷‍♂️

APPROXIMATELY 30 SECONDS LATER

**Things are coming to me more and more moment by moment and now thoughts from that recollection some 20-25 years are coming back to me now. What just occurred to me a moment ago was that at that time (I mean as an adult recollecting…), it was probably during the time I was working the 12 steps with my sponsor Granville-my sexual inventory. I was actually glad nothing happened because the poor girl was probably being sexually molested at that time by either her father, or her brothers, or both. For my part, it was probably a God thing….That evening we were at the drive-in theater with some other family, did some fondling in the back seat… When we got home, she came into the bedroom where I was sleeping, and I shooed her out. That was definitely my grandmother talking lol Anyways, what is the point of this post -not exactly sure. Maybe God will reveal it to me later. Thanks for letting me bramble -I guess this one was for me!***

***Bottom-line: This is not an isolated incident for young adolescent children. A lot of things can go very wrong with something like this:

•The niece of my dad’s common-law wife (essentially my step-mom)

•Pregnancy

•STD

•Strife between both families -Stepmom caught in the middle along with my baby brother…

I’m so glad God intervened -God; that was the point of this post!