What makes a man say something stupid to another man? 🤔

What does it mean when a man, some 25 years after his father passing -find himself asking the question “Why did you have to follow us -we would have been better off without you!? 😏

Rememba when Rocky got shot late in life, took it -and won? A shot at being somebody (other than just anotha losa from the neighborhood)? Well, these writings are my shot -late in life! A chance to maybe make a difference 🤷‍♂️ Not for fame, not for glory, not for money -perhaps just a chance to right a few wrongs and -in the end, walk away with a little dignity (for myself, for my folks -just to let them know they didn’t fail entirely; their life wasn’t a complete waste) JUST LIKE ROCK!

My father and mother gave me a lesson by showing me the true face of addiction -I can never forget or fully repay.

My grandmother taught me to turn to God and all things – In good times and in bad.

These people I attribute my success success in my recovery where so many others have fallen off.

When a person makes an error in judgment legally-they punish us.

When a person makes an error in judgment financially-they bleed us.

Just because you came up through the long, hard road, doesn’t doesn’t give you the excuse of being unsympathetic, unempathetic towards others.

Seeing yourself in others can be quite disturbing! Seeing others act as you once acted can be quite disturbing. I vaguely remember walking into a bar called popcorn for the 1st time after some month sober… Needless to say, it was quite an experience; quite an eye opener.

Just awoke from a nap -I don’t feel so good, woke up in tears. I miss… 💘 💘 🤷‍♂️🤷‍♂️

When I lived with my aunt and Uncle and it was naptime, I could never fall asleep. I would see my cousins laying there in the beds around me and could not fall asleep.

In grade school when it was naptime, I could never fall asleep.

In my later years, whenever I took a nap, I always woke up severely depressed. It was this way for a very long time -I think working the steps analcoholics anonymous removed a lot of those residual effects.

One of the 1st things I thought about when I awoke from my nap was… But I never rode it down on here. And then God just reminded me 2 or 3 hours later. When I awoke from my nap it was 85ﾟ in the apartment -and I felt slightly chilly -THAT’S GOD -HE CAN DO ANYTHING! The temperature I normally feel comfortable at is between 77 and 79°.

Not all people are happy with what “normally” makes people happy!!! So, “don’t go changin’, to try and please me”

Many people my age dream of meeting their parents or a sibling if there is such a thing as heaven. My mother was too sick, too sick to care for me. My father didn’t seem interested. My grandfather on my father’s side didn’t seem particularly interested either.My siblings are essentially nowhere to be found. The only people I’ve seen to be able to look forward to in heaven are my grandparents on my mother’s side and my grandmother on my father’s side. And probably my mother -if she’s willing, and able. Everyone else it seems, could care less about me. So how do you look forward to seeing people like that people like that in the hereafter?*

There are people out there who have a lot less

*I look forward to seeing God, Jesus, the Most Blessed Virgin, the angels and saints…..

Someone I knew who worked at the unemployment office said there was a co-worker there who would purposefully postpone, to the last possible day, to process unemployment checks -with people she tool issue with. When you scratch below the surface you see some beautiful things and some ugly things among humanity. Some people neighbor scratch below the surface so then ever get to see the awe and wonder and the ugliness that really exists in the world. I am not one of those people. I’ve done a lot of scratching through the ears and more often than not I’ve come up disappointed at. But that’s just my personal experience.