I’ve suffered a lot of losses these past for 5 years here’s-which is not unusual for my age I suppose.The few personal relationships I have seem to require more of me than of them (their own willingness… 🤷‍♂️) -if they are to work 😔

When I talk to my family, I almost have to make them look good, or make me look worse, to do otherwise would set off a rebellion… but at the same time, I can’t reach them and I can’t attend is it attain the kind of relationship I want to have with them until they are willing to look at themselves.

When you get better and the people around you don’t type and it creates a chasm. This leads to sadness and in some cases depression. Depression-anger turned inward?

When I first got sober, and would walk into a store and then walk out without anything -I would be nervous as hell-flashbacks from my days of shop lifting. When I got my 1st car in recovery, I felt very nervous around police for a long time – After all, if they say you did it you did it right? And usually, it’s your freedom,, or your money they want.