There’s so much at stake in life. When we shrug off our potential, our God-given potential, those things suffer! JUST THINK OF THE LIVES WE CAN AFFECT BY BECOMING ALL WE WERE INTENDED TO BE!

It’s a wonderful feeling and one I’m altogether unfamiliar with -when the person you long to be with most longs to be with you.

It sucks when GOD determines you’re one of the people that are best served NOT getting the things in life you want most. There are a lot of people in the world that have the things they want most. For me that would be that would be at the very least a family who genuinely loves me. Especially after all the losses I’ve suffered with parents and grandparents and siblings. I have 2 people I care for who are as selfish as can be. One doesn’t know the meaning of love (my aunt) and the other one is only a relative by marriage who does not know how to extend the love of his children to me even though for the last 10 years I’ve acted in the ste(a)d of a son [you’re killin’ me hear GOD] . The other is to get out of this neighborhood (of drinkers and druggers) and out of this apartment Into a home, in a nice neighborhood where I can put my things in the garage and in the spare bedrooms and walk around more comfortably and sit out in the backyard and enjoy the view. I guess some of us are born, or perhaps through the choices we’ve made earlier in our lives, to rely solely on God’s love and GOD’S provision. The most important reason I mention this is this The most important reason I mention this is this: If you happen to be one of those people who is denied your greatest ambitions in life, those needs you feel run deepest; trust in GOD and try not to let it get you down too much. Happiness comes from appreciating the things we have more so than getting the things we want. 🤷‍♂️ I don’t feel like I am surrounded by love -and there’s probably a very good reason for that. TRUST

I just found out recently from my aunt and uncle’s daughter [before I found out last year…] The $85,000 they were gonna give me for a house 2 1/2 years ago has been reduced to I don’t know what. And after all that looking for a house 2 and a 1/2 years ago, all the drama these 2 worked up about not being able to decide whether they wanted to give me the money or not, my aunt did and my uncle didn’t -see what I mean about him not loving those other than his children. Well now it appears that my uncle got his way when he said 2 and a 1/2 years ago that he’d rather wait until hes dead so he doesn’t have to see me get that money if my aunt insists on it. These are heartbreaking truths. 💔 I provide these examples 1st of all because I’m sure I’m not the only one out there in the world going through such things. And secondly because I’m not a victim, I have pretty much everything I need, but I want more. Just like many of you out there want more. But I also have to keep in mind there are also many people out there who don’t have everything they need, and those of us who do should forever remain grateful and charitable [towards others].

Most people are not informed enough to know what things are affected by war and what things are not. So people gamble on that by raising their prices even when they shouldn’t or have no need to. It sucks knowing your fellow man/woman is trying to s**** y**. Maybe what’s worse is not knowing they’re screwing you. Where is the federal government and the state government in all this?? [Too] Busy fighting terrorism I suppose. Using the money some on the domestic front can desperately use to help some country half way around the world.