I saw a documentary several years ago about universities pushing pushing programs knowing the students would unlikely find jobs jobs -simply for the revenue.

•I think some of this can be attributed to the new mindset of ensuing generations. It’s all about the money! Money gets you laid! Money gives you important! Money gives you comfort!*

*Getting 5000 people at Wells Fargo bank to get on with a scandal or scheme to fraud investors… that’s unprecedented it isn’t it?**

**It’s the easiest thing in the world for me to throw this stuff out there and I make no claims I’m applying it myself throughout my years of adulthood. In fact, my life is so simple now that there’s nothere’s not much room for most of these philosophies are principles which often play out in the drama of life of which I have very little these days.***

***I was once told many years ago to never turn down a good piece of advice even if the person giving it -iIs unwilling or unable to take it themselves. For these people, one can only feel pity.

I believe that if we were more open with one another – Among other things, we would more readily see a pattern of evil at work within each of us that would help us to recognize the existence of a malicious force -as well as a benign one.

“River Deep – Mountain High”

Low, Deep, Wide -this has been my right recommendation to Rafael Nadal over the last 11 years.

With regard to my own personal philosophy on writing: Go as deep; Sore as high; and cover as wide (broad) a range as your limits will allow you to -and then go beyond that! IOW – SIMPLY PUT, I SHOOT FROM GOD’S HIP!*

Believe it or not, these writings have simply come to me – As you can see by the poor standard of English grammar… It’s been, for me, more a matter of openness* than that of talent or mastery. 🤔

*When you say to someone “God spoke to me” or “God told me….” Sometimes you get this look like really, and who are you. For me the fact of the matter is that God speaks to everyone -but not everyone listens. And many who do -do not feel so inclined to share it with others openly -as I have here. 🤷‍♂️

To fail is one thing -to fail as a human being is another! Or is it all wrapped in one! Some say that a person who has wonderful relationships with people has accomplished the most human(e) of all things.*

*As a member of Alcoholics Anonymous I have stated on new military occasions The pinnacle of health humanly and spiritually spiritually is the quality of one’s relationships with others -the greatest indication of of mental, emotional, spiritual illness illness is poor relationships. While the greatest indication of these it is lasting and wonderful relationships.**

**People often confuse (I need a moment 😪) high level functioning with with psychological, emotional, spiritual health. Oftentimes our level of function justifies (masks… There it is again, winning and success solve a lot of problems -but really don’t) our poor psychological, emotional, spiritual health. Last night I got very angry at Ana -said some things I once again regret 🤷‍♂️. We are who we are at any given moment -She deals with her fear by poking and I deal with mine by retaliating***

*** It has been my life long endeavor in many ways to undo what I… to unlearn what I have learned -In the place I want to arrive at is where this whole post started; By having the best possible relationships with the human beings around me. We’re all I may or may not have accomplished in my lifetime, this the final frontier, this the epitome you of… HAS CONTINUALLY EVADED ME -AND FOR THIS REASON I CONTINOUSLY EXPERIENCE A SADNESS For which many turn turn to suicide, self destruction, develop numerous neurosis – Of which I have spent most of my 31 and a 1/2 years sober trying to undo. It is a Testament not to me, but to this program and to God that I have made it this far -and faired this far. In spite of all this I believe I have slowly been getting better through the years. I believe myself to be one of those people who:

•Was never intended to make it as far

•Was never intended to be around people -Hence my walking through life feeling largely unnoticed by others (a 👻 if you will)

•I see why people like myself never find continuous sobriety: experience continued feeling of unrest; have a propensity towards self destruction -It’s a terrible feeling to feel as though you don’t fit in -but worse yet, feeling you don’t matter to anyone.

•I’ve been saying this for a long time, I don’t blame people who end up where I end up -finding this long, arguous, at times seemingly perilous journey -all-for-not. I guess without a purpose to boot.. I have one! Maybe this is what keeps me going! It is to finish what I was elected to do roughly 30 years ago -to write and to complete this sight! 👍

I’ve always found it interesting that people of great accomplishment accomplishment quite often tend to associate associate with people of great accomplishment. In certain instances people refuse to surround themselves otherwise.

I personally find it wonderfully refreshing in this day and age when a person of great accomplishment or stature surrounds themselves with regular people.

Give me back the days when rock stars parted with regular people. 🤷‍♂️

No one was more famous than Jesus and no 1 had more talent come more to offer to the masses than Jesus and yet he surrounded himself with the most common of human beings.

Jesus was on the most notable people’s list at the top for many decades and then one day I noticed that had changed. It was a sad day for me! And very telling of The Times!*

* And while we’re subject on the subject of “Music” and “The Times”. The music coming out of the artist is very telling of the mindset and experiences and the feelings that extend outwardly from those times. And lately I don’t like what I’ve been hearing-that is the reflection of what artist have been putting out the past 20 years or so they’re so – maybe 30.

Through the years I’ve only told a handful of people the name of this website. There is no extensive advertising of any type going on here.. It will take off we’ll take off with one person stumbling across it pulling across it at some point – through God’s direction, and then spread across the globe hopefully through a word-of-mouth. Money is not the aim of this website as previously stated.

This insinuation that 1 life is greater than another…. Nobody pays much attention if Bill Smith dies of a heart attack we’re falling down the stairs… But when John Lennon gets shot…. It’s our own doing… And then when we ourselves pass away and most people don’t seem to give two – shits; We’re essentially reaping what we have sown. Not that we give two – shits ourselves after the fact. But it’s not so much the people themselves we give two – shit about. Why would we give two – shits about John Lennon if we never knew him? It’s how they touched us-or more shallow cases, how they entertained us. But none of this really has much to do with the actual valuing of a human being’s life (or death) – Capish?

I appear to have a level of depth that is unwelcomed by many in this community.

You ever think about the garbage being pushed on the American people in an an effort to survive? To earn a living? To make money? To become a billionaire? How is it that we come to accept the kind of food that’s being offered to ourselves and our own children in this country?

Mass-Insanity/Suicide 🤷‍♂️

Every time we take a drag off a cigarette we willfully give away time from our lifespan.

Every time we eat unhealthy food we will fully give away time from our lifespan.

And examples reverberate (are passed on) to our children -how is it that likely the most sacred thing of our species -that of WHAT WE PASS ON TO OUR CHILDREN has been subverted, by-passed, twisted? Well that answer is very, very simple:

•Money

•Survival (by death)

•Greed

INCIDENTLY, THE MOTIVATION BEHIND THIS BLOG NOT ONLY EXTENDS TO PEOPLE BEING EXPLOITED, OR ABUSED BY OTHERS (MALICIOUSLY OR IGNORANTLY -PEOPLE ALSO HARM THEMSELVES FOR SUCH REASONS -AND MORE), BUT TO HELP ALL PARTIES -BE IT VICTIMS OR INSTIGATORS TO A BETTER WAY OF LIVING (AS PER GOD’S TEACHING).

AA is like anything else (sorta):

•You get out of it what you put into it (and a whole lot more probably (Alcoholics wouldn’t likely stand for anything less -lol).*

•Alot of people in AA aren’t that different from people out their.

I didn’t come into this life, or more to the point, I didn’t leave the nest very well prepared! And I certainly understood little about people. One of the things that puzzled me was how certain people managed to get along in life when they… 🤷‍♂️ Or, how some people think the world of people who appear to be complete jack-asses in my mind. The answer to the riddle is this: (some) People treat some people one way, and they treat others another

if you can’t deal with the personalities around you, how are you going to deal with your own Alcoholic personality? If you can’t deal with the personalities in AA (many of which are trying to be helpful) -where there is no alcohol, then how are you going to deal with the world outside of the rooms where:

•There is 🍸 (alcohol)

•Where alot of people either don’t understand you or don’t even care to

•Where there are real-life jerks out there, many of whom have bad intentions

insides outsides… a shame… I didnt… until** (rebel) Granville pointed out… There’s an old saying an Alcoholics Anonymous “Comparing your insides with somebody’s outside”.*** Well:

•A lot of times we have no choice because people don’t always readily throw themselves out there (we see only what they want us to see)

•When a lot of people 1st come in to Alcoholics Anonymous, they don’t feel very good, and they don’t feel very well about themselves. I feel that sometimes people come into the rooms and look around and feel like nobody can relate to what they’re going through -some of us look too happy, like life is perfect… And I guess there would be nothing wrong with that -except for the fact that in a lot of cases people’s lives are not perfect, and they are not happy -they just refuse to let anybody see it (ego, fear). And I don’t think this is good for anyone and I don’t think it’s a good representation of the program itself

We might all be equal in AA but we don’t all possess:

•The same motives

•The same (amount of) wisdom

•The same (amount of) knowledge

•The (same amount of) humity

Alcoholics rarely sober up under ideal conditions.

Something good rarely comes from poor decision making

The thing I love about Alcoholics Anonymous that’s different from the rest of the world outside is that the things we are suggested to do are suggested to do… WHEN WE FOLLOW THEM -EVERYBODY WINS!

*Perhaps nowhere more so than when practicing spiritual principles -do we reap a greater reward reward or harvest for our efforts -and why not? They are the most difficult -so it only makes sense they would be the most rewarding (AND THE MOST PLEASING TO GOD).

**Until I was able to do a thorough 4th and 5th step with my sponsor Granville and gain some perspective on the world through his experience… As I worked my way through the 4th and 5th step there was something very surprising that occurred:

•He asked me to come back the following week. Now here was a man that truly was getting to know me and accepted me. A lot of people whom I had dealt with in the past, really didn’t know me and yet they refused to accept me.

•If a mortal man could accept me as I am only knowing 60 to 70% of me thus far-then what could I expect from a God, who is all-loving, and unconditional in His acceptance -my Grandmother always told me “You can’t outdo God”.

And lastly, when we completed the 4th and 5th steps one of my greatest moments in recovery was when Granville told me “You’re not that bad Richard -you’re about in the middle (of all the people I’ve worked with)”.****

***A lot of Alcoholics lead very isolated lives -in many instances we never get close enough to other people -or, we never seem able to get far enough outside of ourselves to actually know other people… So end up with a very overblown view of ourselves compared to a very shallow understanding of those around us. 🤷‍♂️

****Until a person has been completely open and honest with at least one human being on this planet about who they are -We never know anything close to the complete and absolute unconditional love and acceptance God Himself and self offers us.

Another gift of this great program is I hold no malice we’re wishing no ill will towards any human being on this planet, past or present. Not all peoples are capable of reaching this level -It’s a gift I am not nearly grateful (often) enough for.