In nature, when something is deficient generally speaking, it doesn’t operate properly. If your car doesn’t have gas it doesn’t run. If it doesn’t have oil the engine Burns up. If it doesn’t have tires… and yet, the human body the human body often goes without what it needs and continues to perform and function for years in many cases. The American diet is notorious for lacking in… capish?

I love it “Your truth – My truth…” (I spoke to a friend with about a gazillion years of sobriety -then it dawned on me -he grew up in the sixties and seventies when the rebellion -and the counter-culture were in full swing). It’s one of the things about Alcoholics Anonymous I’ve come to loathe. The idea of an individual God of our own understanding. Of an individual truth about things of our own understanding*. There’s just something about all this that seems devicive (and divisive) -counter productive. Counterintelligent! Countercultural! This idea for example, of everyone having their own God! It may appear to make us stronger as a society -as a global-community… but I don’t think so!

*Thus far, “Man has many opinions and many theories regarding how things operate in the universe – but once he manages to pin down the true understanding of something… It’s generally understood that there’s one explanation and one explanation only! Albeit their are often multiple phases or dimensions or parts to… but generally speaking, ONE EXPLAINATION PEOPLE! And yet, man wants to talk about this “Multi-Vew-Universe”. BOLLOCKS! Convenience… Imagine me in my enemy -as it turns out, having to worship the same God 😳 NOW WE COULDN’T HAVE THAT COULD WE!

Normally, there’s only one way to get it right and… a lot of ways to get it wrong* -this is one of the very 1st fundamental truths I ran across early in my writing.

“One can see man’s ignorance, “ill”ogic (inconsistencies -fallacies/phallacies) everywhere!”

*which is one reason life is fraught with (T)error -and why it’s so nice when one encounters a scenario or endeavor whereby it is basically (entirely) up to the individual, and not “the cosmos” with regard to how it’s done I.e. “how to make a P.B. n’ J. sandwich**

**Why is it that just about everyone can make a P.B. n’ J. sandwich -but as things become more technical… 🤷‍♂️

Treat people the way they treat others long enough -and sooner or later they’re going to get resentful.

(Many) Women (cherish) the right to say “no” almost as much as they hate being told “no” (from 25 or so years ago)🤷‍♂️ After my partner’s children disrespected me repeatedly, and their mother failed to step in, and I told her “if she did not support me”… well, she never did! Several months later I lost interest interest sexually. Hearing no night after night… You should have heard some of the insinuations and insults out of her mouth! Some women hate hearing “no”!

Let’s face it, on a on a massive scale – It is my personal experience that most people at one point in time or another, want thing’s just a little bit better (or alot), just a little bit more than what they’re willing to give. That’s the nature of the EGO! That’s the definition of selfishness and self centeredness -as opposed to selflessness and others-centeredness 🤷‍♂️ One example is out out in the work place… Out in the world in general. Cashiers at the Walmart and other stores around town who who are unwilling to acknowledge you -as if they themselves were waiting to be acknowledged first. People at 4 away stops (to your left) arriving there at the same time, or a little later -and cruising through before you rather, than waiting their turn. Or my all time favorite, stopping to allow someone to cross at a across walk and then I’m not bothering to acknowledge you at all for doing so -and when you’re at a crosswalk standing there, they don’t bother to stop at all. That’s what I live with every day! Pomp and ignorance! Oh, and there are plenty of other things!

To me most people seem about as capable of making a random choice as they are of flipping a coin in their heads – heads or tails.

You ever notice how shows airing the supernatural always come up inconclusive? I mean it’s like the lottery, the only ones who ever seem to win (consistently) are the government and the people airing the shows.

That’s because we’re looking in the wrong place* for the supernatural! You take life for example, right before our very eyes… the supernatural is right in front of us! It’s like the search for God… all you got to do is look around you-duh!!! Even if there were life on every planet in the universe -would it make it any less “the miracle” that it is**? Any less supernatural? You see this is the lie we are all told which which degrades God’s Omnipotence -as well as His Omni-presence! The idea that of something is everywhere it’s no big deal -like gold, diamonds***. WELL 🤔 In the case of something such as life it doesn’t work that way! The amount of life, unlike the amount of gold, doesn’t lessen its miraculousness. And if you really want to get technical-Gold too is miraculous!

YOU SEE, PERCEPTION 🤔, RELATIVITY 🙆‍♂️, SLIGHT-OF-HAND 😵, FLAWED-LOGIC 🤷‍♂️… THEY’RE ALL APART OF THE MAGIC SHOW!

They tell us this exists and we believe them. They tell us this doesn’t exist and we believe them -the slightest doubt is all that is required -the Kennedy assassination; alien-abduction; Bigfoot; Lochness; Roswell… 🙆‍♂️

The dinosaurs -how do we know that’s a real bone we’re looking @ in the museum? The Shroud of Turin?

“The easiest lie to believe is the lie we want to be true -the hardest truth to believe is the one we don’t want to be true”.

When they give us something that runs counter to what’s in The Bible we become skeptical of The Bible. The Garden of Eden, Adam-and-Eve and the rib, mankind coming from two beings magically created by God (but when they tell us something that’s seem plausible -from a purely humanistic standpoint -we tend to swallow it hook-line-and-sinker)****. It’s easier to plant doubt in someone’s mind than it is to get them to believe in something incredible! We all believe Jesus existed, walked the Earth, was a carpenter…. You throw in the fantastical and we’ve become doubters*****

*We’re all being distracted, as well as duped by:

•A false definition of the supernatural <-which may, or may not in fact exist 🤷‍♂️ but because ->(which on paper -in certain men’s own writing of course, DOESN’T EXIST)<-. And… if “it” (something supernatural) doesn’t exist (and we get this message fed to us over and over through inconclusive (man-devised/tainted) evidence…

•then all that does exist are you, me, a bunch of matter, a bunch of laws, and a bunch of really neat toys -oh 🤔, and a struggle for power! And if you happen to be weak or mediocre… yikes! Best dance to the pipers tune💃🕺(there’s always a message). God has His, man his, satan his… Oh, I forgot, this paragraph is about man -the supreme entity in the universe 🤗

**it sounds to me almost as if 🤔 some thing, or some one is trying to turn the tables on us -take something that in itself is absolutely otherworldly, breathtakingly miraculous, and make it seem like “no big deal” and therefore… not only is there no devil (🤔 the greatest trick the devil ever pulled is convincing the 🌍 that he doesn’t exist – but why stop there, let’s throw God in there while “I” (satan) (don’t) have your attention -because I don’t exist remember 🤷‍♂️), but no God either! GLOBAL-DELUSION/DENIAL

***🤔 Isn’t there a planet out there made of solid diamond?

****When there is a lot at stake -we either hang on to something for dear life or we dismiss miss it for dear life!******

*****The more there is at stake, the more we scrutinize it -even doubt it! The more empirical evidence we require to prop up our belief in it! So does that mean satan’s got us all by the balls? If God uses truth, and the highest morals -while satan uses lies, and the lowliest of principles, does that mean satan has the upper hand? I guess that all depends on what band it’s point we as human beings choose to operate from! If we take the low road -satan’s looking pretty good. If we take the high road -God is looking pretty good.

****** You take the cops for example, when they find evidence that substantiates…. They run with it. When they find evidence that discredits… they bury it! Typical actuarial analysis!

In any given situation… and I saw this in a movie, all one has to do is confuse the issue enough or plant enough doubt! In police work the police tend to look for the most likely of possibilities -and people looking to throw the cops off of the real trail know this. In a conspiracy, who do you think will win out – The individual who has planned something for years, and seemingly has all the time in the world, all the resources in the world, all the brains in the world… or the overworked, under staffed, underpaid, under resourced… police and FBI… who wins?

When they tell us something that’s hard to believe, however true it may be -we find it hard to believe. When they tell us something that’s easy to believe, however untrue it may be -we tend to believe it.

I CANNOT THINK ANYMORE -BUT THIS WAS WHAT I WAS TOLD LONG AGO AND BITS AND PIECES WERE GIVEN TO ME OVER A VERY LONG DURATION OF TIME -ABSOLUTELY INCREDIBLE! AND THEN TO HAVE SO MUCH OF IT POUR OUT HERE IN JUST THE COURSE OF AN HOUR OR SO.

Remember what satan said “man is so easy to trick, mislead, to toy with his emotions”. <- But you see, a prepared mind, armored with God’s unveiling of satan’s lies, is more than a match! Not I – but God! Unfortunately-most people are hardly interested (open), let alone prepared.

“It isn’t what it is Tommy. It’s never what it is. It is what it can be made to look like.” (From the movie “Edge of Darkness” (2010). Starring Mel Gibson. Directed by Martin Campbell. Written by William Monahan/Andrew Bovell).

“It’s Not What You Know, It’s What You Can Prove in Court”. (From the movie “Law Abiding Citizen” (2016). Starring Gerard Butler and Jamie Foxx. Directed by F. Gary Gray. Written/Screenplay by Kurt Wimmer).

It hurt twice as bad when someone I love hurt me -and seemingly felt nothing (said nothing).

In the town I live in, apparently acknowledging you hurt someone is taboo – because no one here ever does! Except Ana… and my uncle -twice!

In my case perhaps, I lived during one of the most fruitful and peaceful times in our world, and in our country. But I also suffered some of the worst experiences a child could -domestically speaking.

I have it on good authority that the life I live today is better than 80% of the people out there. I should remind myself of that on a regular basis.With all my defects… God has continued to give me a good life 🤷‍♂️

Something has been gnawing at me for some time: In order to get good credit you have to leave a certain amount of money in debt and pay it on a regular basis on a regular basis in order to optimize your credit. Meanwhile, you are getting charged interest. So am I to take away from this that in order to have good credit good credit, to buy a decent car at a decent interest rate, to buy a house at a decent interest rate… You have to remain in a certain amount of debt and pay interest on that debt? 🤷‍♂️

My grandmother always used to say “If you have enough money to pay your bills be thankful.”

Thank God you have food to dirty those dishes with that you have to wash at night.

How many times have we stopped -just short of…*

*Sometimes God will keep pushing the 🥕 just out of our reach -because the point of it is not to get the 🥕 but to learn for ourselves:

•What our limitations are

•To push our through our own limitations

•To learn humility through accepting defeat

•To accept life on life’s terms

•To learn to differentiate/embrace “the serenity to accept the things we cannot change, or the courage to change the things we can.”

The less we accept things, the more courage we will have to muster in order to change them. The less courage we show in changing things, the more acceptance we will have to muster in order to live serenely with them.

You know what I have found to be very very interesting 🤔 this starting happening to me some time during my years at the university – I would be listening to a program or news commentary on a particular subject or issue… A thought would come into my head, and then a so called expert would come on and repeat what I was thinking*

You know what most people love about most people? WHAT THEY DO FOR THEM, & -THEIR ATTRACTIVE FEATURES, TRAITS… You know what most people don’t love about most people? WHAT THEY DON’T DO FOR THEM, & -THEIR UNATTRACTIVE FEATURES, TRAITS…**

*Try this ‐ Quiz yourself on some topics that you know little about that mankind has already figured out. Give your best answers and compare them to to those already established answers. See how you score. Whether you score high or low Isn’t relative in and of itself (except on a personal level perhaps). Now then, you can do this regardless of how you scored scored in the first trial but – If you scored fairly high, Then try to tackle some subjects for which mankind has yet to find any answers.There’s a good chance you may have some of them right.

**You know what the thing is about alcohol and alcoholics? It requires little to no character! It taxes us little! In fact, many “an-alcoholic-in-their-cups”, it could be said, have some rather unappealing character traits/features.

The people just a tad-bit 🤏 older than me, are starting to show signs of fading. Some recently, have died a premature death (if, in God’s universe there is such a thing) 🤔 Does this mean I’m heading towards their same fate -perhaps sooner than later? My hip, a cracked tooth, general feeling of age…😒

*I probably have had a better run than most – especially when one considers how reckless I’ve been throughout my life!